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It's funny how history's repeating itself . Just barely a week since school started , I already have thoughts of quitting & I know you're going to think , what again ?!

The last time this happened was exactly 1 year ago at around the exact same time which's freaky I say . I think it's because I was so used to a lot of freedom surfing the net way too much & hanging out on AHS practically the whole day which explains why the sudden drastic change in my attitute/mood .

Perhaps I took a way longer 'vacation' & enjoyed myself way too much which led to such circumstances . Not to mention it doesn't help matters that I'm stuck with 2 subjects that I don't consider to be my faves at all - Management & Statistics !

I spoke to a couple of people on MSN & they advise me to hang on & just deal with it . Besides , time flies by so fast & probably without me realising it , I might graduate in due time .

I never had such problems before because I'm someone that can manage my time pretty well but after what I went though this week , it forced me to take a backseat & realise I really need help to manage time . Manage in such a way that I can cram in my free time , exercise & diet regiem , interest , study time & the list goes on .

You see I put study time as the last attribute which only can mean 1 thing - studies's like the last thing that cross on my mind which I know it's really bad . I'm trying to change all that & hopefully be a more hardworking student than before as now I realise , I need to put in even more extra efforts in these 2 subjects especially Management as I need to do a lot of reading & the only time I ever do reading's when comes to the latest gossip news on celebs & magazines .

& it doesn't help matters that I suck when comes to languages & it looks like my friend Weng Yew & I have quite a lot of things in common , more than I thought it will be since we're practically stuck in the same situation but in a different boat that we're taking .

I frankly don't know when will be the next time I will be updating here & on my music blog + on MSN too since now I reckon a good portion of my time I have to spend on studying & whatever free time I have to log onto the net these days , I just download the latest music/news .

I will take life as it's , 1 day at a time & I do want to graduate & to make my parents proud & I think it's about serious time I do something good for myself & to quit whining like a loser .

If not , then there will be no 1 to help me at the end of the day . Wish me , myself & I luck on this .

& oh before I forget , happy 25th bday to 1 of the most gorgeous guys around aka MatsuJun whose bday was yesterday :D

At least I have something to look out for tomorrow in that I'm going to watch an early sneak of Hana Yori Dango Final with Hui Li in which I have been waiting FOREVER for it to be shown here !

I have been waiting for it since late June so you can imagine ! Genie already sent the movie last night & people I known has seen the trailer that has been broadcast on TVMobile & I didn't at all -_- but never mind it's ok .

I want to thank all the lovely people whom I talked to just now on MSN , especially my aunt Yee Ma , cousin Felicia , Weng Yew , Gen . You guys are the best & I do hope that I can get my problem/s sorted out in due time .

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Thursday, August 28, 2008

Suddenly I thought I was in a spin cycle . Ever since I started school again 2 days ago , my life has changed upside down . I started spending less time on the net & nowadays whenever I logged into AHS , at most I only frequent the Asian Media Downloads & Asian Media Chat forums as I don't have much time & luxury as before .

Not to mention with the demands of my new trimester , it's really no joke for me & I think it's about time that I come up with some time plan as I'm lousy when comes to time management .

I'm still in the process of adjusting my momentum back to the fast paced of schoolwork & I have to admit so far it's not easy at all but hopefully in time to come , I will get the hang of it .

It's suddenly strange that I wasn't keeping in contact with my S'porean & JE buddies on AHS as often as before but I do hope that they will understand my plight after I made the announcement on AHS on Mon . It's hard for me because I grown quite attached to some of them on there since I 1st joined the place this Jan on my 21st bday but I suppose absence makes the heart grow fonder ?

I just downloaded a whole buncha stuff from AHS , including upcoming new material from alan & Anna Tsuchiya & I can't wait to check them out . Sept & Oct are 2 months that're shaping to be good months in the Japan music scene since there're quite a lot of new releases coming from my fave Jpop artistes so that's 1 good thing .

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Saturday, August 23, 2008

It has been VERY & I stress the word very cold the past few days here . It has been pouring big time on an almost daily basis & while I do welcome the change in weather , I don't like it when comes to night time especially in the wee hours of the night where things can get really chilly , so much so that I had to use my blanket & wrap myself up like a rice dumpling .

But I suppose it beats sleeping in a very humid place/surrounding but still I can't help but get too close or should I say too cold for comfort . Guess human beings are never happy with the things that they're most content with in the 1st place .

I received my new Uni timetable yesterday & I can't believe I'm saying this but I'm actually looking forward to start school again next week . I have been spending way too much time on the net & in a way I needed a new distraction of sorts .

I look at my new timetable & from the look of things , my schedule seems to be a-ok although frankly I'm not looking forward to studying Management . I'm not really a books person as I hate reading in the 1st place . I don't mind subjects that involve calculations like Accounts but for a subject like Management where I HAVE to read a textbook ? no go for me & somemore I'm not a bookworm too but oh well .

I suppose when next week rolls out , it will be a brand new school term for me to experience & also probably the odd change or so going on in me ?

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Wednesday, August 20, 2008

I can't help it , I MUST post the Eng translated lyrics links of ARASHI's truth / Kaze no Mukou single as today's the day that the single's officially released .

All the Eng translated lyrics credited to http://iruy.livejournal.com/

Eng translated lyrics of truth

Eng translated lyrics of Kaze no Mukou e

Eng translated lyrics of Smile

& I so can't wait for Hana Yori Dango Final to roll out now after I saw Teens & Teenage reviewing about the movie separately . I have been waiting for it since late June & it's about time I say for the movie to be released here !

& wow I love the lyrics of truth even more now :D . Kaze no Mukou e is an extremely uplifting no. backed with a strong encouraging message . Nice !

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Monday, August 18, 2008

Since Gen requested me to upload pics that I took when I was at Jurong Bird Park on Sat , here're some that I will post in here as it's downright impossible for me to upload over 70+ worth of pics on here , it will be scary big time .

If you want to see the rest of the pics , just let me know at the usual place . I can send you an email containing the link to my photobucket account .

Anyway here goes :

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Sunday, August 17, 2008

This entry's kinda inspired by Yee Ma who I'm having a MSN chat with her at the moment . It's a real simple straight to the point 1 involving the C word - changes .

She asked me what kinda changes I have experienced during the past few months & so I thought why not I list them away ? It beats bottling everything up in the 1st place .

These're some few changes be it negative or positive ones that I experienced in the last 3-4 months .

Negative Changes :

1) I've drifted away from some people whom I'm not going to list their names on here . I'm sure people who have read my blog since day 1 might probably have a clue as to who're the people I'm referring to . It's not just 1 people , it's a few . It's quite sad actually especially since 1 of them I have known for almost 4 years now but now due to changes that occurred on my part & him , I slowly but surely have drifted apart from him since ... April this year .

I'm not bitter about it but like what Maggie said , at least I still have the memories to cherish & hold onto in my heart . Would I consider a recon of sorts if he were to make the 1st move to ask how am I since most of the time I'm always making the 1st move on our somewhat now ex friendship ? I might .

& so to these few people whom I have drifted away , I dedicate ARASHI's truth to you . The Eng lyrics , melody & the video said it all .

2) I don't support any artistes who neglect people/fans for bringing them the success that they're currently deserving . That was what happened when I supported the local music scene .

Somehow down the line , I felt underappericated & I decided to have a clean break of sorts & leave on the quiet . I still support Electrico & Lunarin (still waiting for their new album to be released) but as to other bands , that's a different thing altogether & now I come to understand that it's best not to take things on a too close for comfort level because once that happens , things will get in the way & it's not fun when you get too emotionally attached to someone/something .

3) Since I have set my blog to private mode officially no thanks to what I'm going to say next , I can say this here . Levan Wee of ex Ronin & Astroninja 'fame' sent me an email via MySpace & flamed almost the whole tagboard of my blog after he read a past entry on the fact that I said that I was disgusted with the way he reviewed albums in LIME .

I could go on & say nasty things about him but I wouldn't . I didn't even read what he wrote on the tagboard , I just delete the whole buncha of the messages that he left on the tagboard since I know they're not nice to begin with but might as well .

I still have the email he sent me on MySpace . Who knows maybe in the near future , I will take it & show it to the press if I feel like it ? That's if I want to expose the true colours behind his real personality .

Positive Changes :

1) I guess 1 of the biggest positive changes that happened to me during the past 3-4 months was discovering even more JPop acts than ever before after I decided to listen to what Japan has to offer full time since last Oct .

I'm always on the lookout for good JPop acts & have been expanding my JPop artistes list from day to day & lately I've been listening to JPop newcomer alan & she's not bad at all & her music's unique too . I'm officially in love with Sora Uta now .

2) I used to have a bad impression of bands who're under Johnny's Entertainment but something inside me convinced me to give their music a shot & I officially jumped onto the JE bandwagon in late May & now , they have earned my respect super big time & they proved to me that they're not just mere pretty boys .

You have to sing , dance , act , host among other things to be a JE boyband member & it's quite a feat to do that & unlike most fangirls , I do not know how the bands looked like prior to listening to their music & of course subsequently down the line , I got Jun-baited haha

& the bands that I support now be it Koukai or Sempai groups in JE , they have some great harmonies/melodies going on in their songs & the very 1st JE album that I listened to happen to come from sextet KAT-TUN ala their 3rd album KAT-TUN III QUEEN OF PIRATES in which in my music blog , I officially crowned the album as my fave album of the year .

3) it's funny on how the fave artistes that you support will in time to come inspire you in some ways or another to change on an aspect of yourself . In the past , I never consider to get additional piercings on my ears nor to get contacts as I didn't see the need to but after supporting ayumi hamasaki for a while , I decided to get 2nd ear hole piercings after I found out she has 2-3 holes on both ears & talk about suffering for your art .

I was nervous prior to getting 2nd ear hole piercings last year as it had been a long time since I got my ears done but luckily I survived in 1 piece although I hated the after effects of it .

Whereas for contacts issue , guess I have MatsuJun to thank for inspiring me to think about it ? & no it's not because he's hot or anything else (ok yes he's I can't deny it) , it's other issues . Fangirls will know what I'm talking about so I leave it as it's .

4) Ben & Jerry's <3 . If not for their outrageous prices , I don't mind to eat it on a daily basis but of course it comes with a price : getting brain freeze .

5) When all else fails , just listen to music will instantly lift up my mood be it on whether am I having a crabby or a great day .

6) HEYx3 & Utaban are 2 of my fave comedy shows to watch now . Downtown is a great comedic duo & SMAP leader's Nakai & comedian Takai are 2 class hosts for Utaban .

Nakai should probably stop bullying ARASHI's leader Ohno especially in the last Utaban appearance the guys appeared in but it's never the same without both leaders clashing against each other for good fun & I think Ohno's an expert in making Nakai pissed LOL

Ohno , next time bring along a toy watergun & a big watermelon to defend yourself from Nakai HAHA

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Saturday, August 16, 2008

So I went to the Jurong Bird Park with Hui Lin & my mum this morning & my god let me just say that 4-5 hours trotting within the whole bird park probably will allow me not to set off in the gym within the next few weeks to come .

But jokes aside it was quite an educational experience & I became a tourist just for today , taking lots of pics within the bird park , enjoying the shows being put by the staff of the attraction , learning the many species of birds found in the world possible among others .

The only thing I remembered was that the last time I went to the bird park was when I was a kid which's like I don't know about 10 - 11 years ago ? But it was quite fun visiting the bird park although now my legs are dying on me big time & yes in short I'm exhausted .

But funny enough , 1 of the main draws for today was the food & let me just say that Bongo Burgers's officially 1 of my fave burger chains now . I love the beef burger that I had just now for lunch , it's 1 of the best ones that I had in a really long time & frankly to me , McDonalds , Burger King , Carl Jr can't really hold a handle to Bongo Burgers .

I still like Carl Jr's but whenever I have the chance to have some Carl Jr fare , I always go for their chicken burgers . I'm not sure why but somehow I don't really like the beef burgers being served at Carl Jr .

Too bad there's no plans for Bongo Burgers to open more outlets within S'pore but hopefully the tide will turn soon .

& I rekindled my love for Ben & Jerry's after that too . The Strawberry Cheesecake flavor's <3 among others like Chunky Monkey , Cookie Dough , Choco Brownie & etc .

Maybe I should scheduled every weekend to have some Ben & Jerry's if that's the case .

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Thursday, August 14, 2008

The weekend's around the corner & more or less my mum has already laid down some plans on what to do during the weekend in which 1 of them's to visit Jurong Bird Park !

Yeah I know what ? Even I was stumped when my mum made that suggestion but if you ask me , it has been waaay too long since I last visited the bird park . I don't know if plans are firmed up yet cos my mum also mentioned that she might want to visit the Zoo or the Night Safari this weekend .

& Hui Li was making a joke in that Hui Lin will be able to get in for free if we were to head to the bird park this coming Sat haha , a nod to Hui Lin's zoadic sign haha

I only have been to the night safari once when I was a kid . I'm definitely sure a lot of things have changed since the last time I been there .

Well I have to see what my mum says because honestly at this point in time , nothing has been confirmed just as yet . It's a toss between the bird park , zoo & night safari right now , so which one my mum will choose & to bring me & the rest this coming weekend ? only time will tell .

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Friday, August 08, 2008

YAY the full length of the truth PV was released midnight - 1am today in Japan & already when I logged onto the net this morning , all the links are up & running to download it & it was agonising waiting for the full thing to be out . Well 1/2 of it since ARASHI's putting out a double A side single with both songs receiving their own PVs .

Hui Li & I watched it just now & it's <3 . It really does fit the whole Maou theme extremely well especially with the reference of the lily flowers in the video . I think if you didn't watch Maou , you wouldn't know why it's doing in there but yeah great stuff going on & it's probably the guys's most darkest , serious , emo video to date & oh also song wise too .

Nice to see Ohno & Aiba getting more screentime than the rest although all of them looked equally great in the video & also for once Ohno gets his own spotlight since in recent years to me he has been overshadowed of sorts by the likes of the rest so finally , Captain , you're there !

& speaking of Maou , earlier on I watched the 5th episode fitted with Eng subs . Ooh thrilling stuff , I wonder what's going to happen tonight when the 6th episode rolls out in Japan .

I thought the full PV of Kaze no Mukou e will be out today since it's the start of the Beijing Olympics & etc as Kaze no Mukou e is used as the NTV Beijing Olympics Theme Song but that will be tomorrow WOO HOO

& yesterday I was still grumbling on why the PVs are not out yet haha

I do hope someone can subbed the latest Utaban episode that the guys appeared in last night . From the look of things , it's hilarious stuff especially where SMAP leader's Nakai got taken down by a watermelon (of all things) when he was holding a toy watergun LMAO

Wouldn't be surprised if Nakai & Ohno clashed headon ... AGAIN . Then again according to Kaori , they have been at it for years . I wasn't sure because I'm not that familiar with Utaban that's why I got a shock when that happened the last time the guys appeared on it .

The guys did truth after the talking segment of Utaban & MatsuJun's <3 <3 & YAY he cut his hair thankfully but Aiba ... , 1st time seeing him looked so tense & in a permdo . That surprised me cos I was so used to seeing him being all Aibaka like haha

& oh before I forget , happy 15th birthday Jia Rong :)

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Wednesday, August 06, 2008

I went to watch the 1st 4 episodes of the Japanese dodrama Maou that're fitted with Eng subs the whole of this afternoon .

Maou is a remake of the popular suspense drama The Devil that was aired in Korea last year & also the leader of ARASHI Ohno plays the lead role in Maou in which he played Naruse Ryo who's a two-faced lawyer , one of which is a kind hearted soul & the other who is plotting revenge , using his brilliant mind , on the person who killed his relative .

Talked about being a doppelganger within yourself & luckily I watched it in the afternoon simply because I know for sure I wouldn't be able to sleep soundly later on at night as Maou emphasised quite a lot on the paranormal as it deals with tarot cards & the prophecies behind each & every card that was given to its victims & it was quite an educational ride learning about it & it proved to me that I should not dabbed anything with the supernatural .

It's fun to read about it yes but to dab in it , it's as good as playing with fire .

Ohno scared the hell outta me as I didn't expect he would portrayed such a brillant 2 faced defence laywer that well cos I was so used to seeing him being all of a mummy's boy as even though he's going to turn 28 this coming Oct , his mum still buys his clothes & shoes so it was a shock when I 1st watched Maou .

I think it's the same issue when I 1st watched MatsuJun playing a total basket case as Domyoji Tsukasa in Hana Yori Dango 1 & 2 too but in anycase , both MatsuJun & Ohno have my respect now .

Who would have thought it took me a mere 2-3 months to go from a total Johnny Entertainment greenhorn to an almost know it all now especially since now I support most of the current IT JE bands & also a few of their sempai's too which's so cool .

I think the catalyst which led me to get serious about JE was that I was getting to a point where I was in need of some 'fresh male blood' as in the beginning when I kick started my JPop journey 2 years ago , I 1st started to listen to female solo acts .

& then late Oct when I decided to went full time & dived in straight into my journey , the 1st male band I came across was abingdon boys school & then Ken Hirai .

JE didn't knocked on my door til a few months later on this year , around late May or so ? & ever since then , I've immersed myself in the JE bands's music but unlike most fangirls who got Jun-baited & etc , the 1st thing that drew me into JE was the music . I didn't even know how the members looked like prior to that .

I couldn't even care less as to what shows they host , what dramas/movies they act in & etc since you have to be a Jack Of All Trades to survive in JE . You even must do a back flip for god's sake among other things .

In fact dodramas wise , I only watched Hana Yori Dango 1 & 2 and most recently Maou & shows wise , some episodes of Shounen Club & VS ARASHI . I can't be bothered to watch the other 10 or so shows that ARASHI host , that's nuts .

Anyway I didn't had a good impression of JE prior to what has happened during the past 2-3 months for reason/s unexplainable but now the bands that I support in JE gets my respect big time .

Hopefully episode 5 of Maou will be fitted with Eng subs real soon as the plot begins to thicken as time goes by & it's exactly 2 weeks's time before ARASHI's 23rd single's truth / Kaze no Mukou e be released in Japan & of course truth's used as the theme song for Maou & in a way I'm real glad that Ohno is finally given his own spotlight to shine .

& oh the cameo that Nino appeared in the 1st episode of Maou , so un-necessary much ?

In a way I can relate to the plot sypnosis of Maou especially Ohno's character as by right I'm quite the bitter & 2 faced person in real life .

As much as I like dear 'ol MatsuJun , I don't think it's fair for him to hoggle the limelight all the time & after I saw the Eng translated lyrics of truth when I was watching Maou now , it make me appericate the song even more than before especially the lyrics which's very fitting for the show .

Anyway , I'm waiting for the PVs for both songs to be out soon (hurry up man J Storm) . The PV preview for truth's amazing & it's very Maou-ish . I was quite disappointed with the PV preview for Kaze no Mukou e when I saw it this morning as it's a studio PV when I 1st caught it but I find it not that bad now especially when Nino was strumming the acoustic guitar away which surprised me . Then again he's always full of surprises .

I think MatsuJun has been taking fashion tips from Nino ala from what Nino wore in the Step and Go PV . Sakurai ... damn the Keio boy was hot in the preview . Oh what am I doing ? Sakurai 'belongs' to Hui Li , I should not steal him away from her mwahaha .

truth lyrics :

One trembling shaking light
Disappears without healing the pain
I take your life forever
You take my life forever
One sweeping falling tear
Disappears without its emotions reaching the other
I take your life forever
You take my life
Can't stop
The trace of fallen tears
Concealed within time , the colour of almost fallen tears
Love is surely like the falling rain
Can't go back
The trace of fallen tears
Memories return , the colour of almost fallen tears
Everything that was taken by this world
Sorrow
No matter what kind of ending is shown
The heart reminds wrapped in mystery
Like the darkness that is
The truth closing in
No matter what kind of world is shown
I can't see tomorrow
Just like the lilly , oblivious of impurity
My wishes are clear

Told you it's deep stuff & more or less I dedicate truth to a friend whom I unfortunately drifted away from him . It's sad that things has happened but if he were to see the lyrics of truth & not to mention the PV of it eventually , the message's there , I probably wouldn't take him back again in my life & that's another story that I would go in depth if I want to on another day .

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Tuesday, August 05, 2008

I never done so much reading since the last time every new Hot magazine was released in stores on a fortnightly basis .

Earlier on in the afternoon , I went to purchase the latest issue of Girlfriend . I was about to leave for home & I decided to step inside Popular for the fun of it & I realised that the latest book ala Vol 18 of True S'pore Ghost Stories is on the shelves which made my heart stopped for a while cos I have been waiting for this like FOREVER to be published .

I finished the whole book earlier on & I must say the stories this time round are even more sinister & darker than the previous batch of 17 books especially part 2 of a story in which art intimates life .

Who would have thought whatever took place in reel life in the anime Jigoku Shojo would happened in real life ? The 1st part of the story initially surfaced in Vol 17 & I have been waiting for so long for part 2 to arrive in Vol 18 which I'm quite happy at the outcome cos part 1 of the story , things were hanging at mid air .

I'm so relieved that things turned out the way it supposed to be for the person who sent in that story of hers & I'm surprised that there will be a part 3 to the story wow .

Also the new volume has a more international feel to it as there're more stories featured in the new book which were sent & included from many people outside of S'pore .

Aside from that , I also learnt many new things which opened my eyes even wider to the paranormal world . Like what you should & shouldn't do during Qing Ming festival , some suspicions regarding Korean culture beliefs & non beliefs among other cool stuff .

Who says that reading up in the paranormal world doesn't benefit , it does for me .

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Sunday, August 03, 2008

Wow I should give myself a gold star or 2 for accomplishing something this week . Something that I haven't done in a very long time aka hitting the gym with a fury everyday in that I surprised myself & I pushed myself harder than usual since I was becoming somewhat of a couch potato especially during the weekends .

But nowadays , I set aside about 1/2 - 40 mins in giving myself some me-time .

So yesterday the MTV Asia Awards returned back after it went MIA last year & this time it's held at Genting , Malaysia .

MTV Asia played the delayed broadcast of it at 11pm . I only managed to watch some parts of it since my mum was hogging the TV due to her football matches & 1 word = disappointment .

The crowd's reaction/response was lacklustre & also you don't exactly get the best top notch sound system when you're in the City Of Entertainment . I say so because the sound system was quite sub par when the performing acts did their thing onstage although I must say that Panic At The Disco were awesome when they belted out I Write Sins Not Tragedies & Nine In The Afternoon .

The Click Five performed Jenny (AGAIN for the gawd damn million time , will it kill you NOT to do it no matter how much I love the song . Wouldn't hurt to do Happy Birthday or Flipside right ?) , frontman Kyle looked different , way different than usual . I'm not sure what though , must be the all white suit that he was wearing . If not it's the harsh lighting .

& yes Stefanie Sun won the Fave Artist of S'pore AGAIN . Damn at this rate , Electrico can forget about winning the award :( & Stefanie still dared to say onstage that it's the 5th time that she won the same award grr . Oh rub it in don't you ? T_T

Her win surprised me because I thought JJ Lin would get it as I recalled there were a lot of votes being cast for him online . Guess not .

There will be a couple more encore broadcasts of this year's MAAs in days to come . I think I will watch it on Tue but despite how crap the show turned out to be from what I have seen last night , the hosts 30 Seconds To Mars's frontman Jared Leto & Karen Mok did a great job hosting the event , kudos to that .

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Friday, August 01, 2008

Something happened at the beginning of early this week in which I almost lost a friend due to some misunderstanding/s of sorts that we had but thanks to the kind intervention of Triple D , me & my fellow AHS buddy Kaori managed to patch things up .

The both of us were having some misunderstandings in AHS for quite sometime no thanks to my part for all the 'trouble' & 'misdoings' that I caused on there although probably Triple D will beg to differ but still without his help , I might not be able to patch things up with Kaori & honestly I would hate to see a friendship bite the dust just like that because I have her to thank for getting my foot started on the music of the Johnny Entertainment bands but yes I'm SO relieved that things are back to normal as they once were .

Kaori PM'd me on AHS & said that I didn't need to accept her apology & etc as she was being mean & all but I forgive her since I'm willing to give people 2nd chances if I see that they really mean it . I suppose each of us are hot tempered in our own extent but life's too short to be angry over such a matter & as such , I just let the matter rest & decided to start things anew with her .

The old me will not do such a thing but I guess as time goes by , the mentality & mindset of a person will change gradually . I mean the same issue that I looked & perceived at 5 years ago , will be totally different now . I think it's something to do with the transition from a teen to an adult .

& it's all part of learning from experiences from the past & ensuring that I wouldn't commit the same mistake again in the present .

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