:+: Fine after rain :+:

Daniel replied back to me eariler & he gave me some details of the upcoming Rivermaya/Electrico gig that will be taking place at Bar None on Oct 25th . 1stly the age limit which's fortunately (or unfortunately in here haha) will be 18 & above ( I'm qualified YAY) & that the gig will start at 9pm with Electrico leading the way & then Rivermaya will come on at 10pm & the event should wrapped up around 11pm ++ . Ooh .. neat neat !!

& get this he will be most happy to pass me as many tickets as possible !! WAHAHAHA !!! the pros of knowing him I tell you AHAHAHA :P :P & he suggested that I should bring a friend along but the thing's , Hui Li's underage & has school on that day & now there're no plans that the other girls might wanna go . I asked Dilah , Fieza & Su-Hanna already yesterday but nothing has been confirmed so far . Hmmm.. maybe it will take a while but 1 thing I know's that I'm GOING !!!!!!!!

Then again maybe going alone might not be such a bad idea after all heh heh heh & that I might hang out with both bands after the gig finished , WOO that will be great to mingle with both bands !! & wah if that's the case , I better start saving up should I choose to do that , I might need to take a cab home as I think public transports wouldn't be available around so late & I checked that the last bus will leave at 11.30pm but oh who cares man ahahaha

My inital plan was to go to watch Corpse Bride after I finish school today but I decided to wait until next Tue as my CA's on next Tue so I thought I better watch it after I finish my CA as movies can wait & all but CA's & exams can't at all !

Mama allowed me to go to Bar None on Oct 25th to see Electrico & Rivermaya at their gig YAY after I asked her last night . I sent an SOS to Daniel already , asking him for some tickets as they can't be bought due to the fact that the event will not be opened to the public . Ah the pros of knowing someone in the band haha! Hui Li can't go as that week will be still school for me . For my case , I will be already starting my holidays so WOO HOO.

At least I have 2 things to look forward to after I wrapped up my exam for my 3rd semester , the gig & something else ... & now I'm downloading music from Pussycat Dolls's PCD album with thanks to Sadie ! The tracks I downloaded so far are really good , at least the standard's up there with the success of Don't Cha . Wonder what track will be their next one ???

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Thursday, September 29, 2005

Electrico Plays Host To Rivermaya At Bar None
One of Philippines' biggest rock acts Rivermaya will be gracing Singapore shores come October 25, 2005. The three-time victor of MTV Pilipinas Favourite Group award, Rivermaya will be teaming up with Singapore's own indie rock powerhouse Electrico at Bar None, Singapore Marriott Hotel.

"Besides being good friends, we are huge fans of theirs and respect their work tremendously, so we are really excited for this upcoming show as well. If anything it is a great way to introduce each others bands to a new fanbase!" says guitarist Daniel Sassoon of Electrico on what is one of the most anticipated shows of the year.

The Singapore band has been keeping busy after their prestigious nomination for Favorite Artist - Singapore at the MTV Asia Awards 2005. Besides recently playing to a full house at the Esplanade's recital studio, the band's been hard at work on album number two.

"Well, we have been in the studio recording, so that is taking up most of our time as we want to make sure we get it right... Also, we have recorded a collaboration with Rivermaya, which we are both working on in two separate countries by sending computer files to each other, which will appear on our album and possibly Rivermaya's next one too!" adds Sassoon.

Catching two of the biggest bands in Asia performing together is an experience that money can't buy, for the show will not be opened to the public. But fret not, tickets to this exclusive showcase can be obtained on Electrico's official website at www.electricomusic.com . you could be on your way to the most rocking night of your life.

Details

Title: ELECTRICO + RIVERMAYA @ BAR NONE

Date: October 25, 2005

Time: 8.30pm

Venue: Bar None, Singapore Marriott Hotel
HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!!!! Looks like I know the right person to get the tickets from then ehehehehe . Now I hope mama will let me go to see them on that day as by that time , it will be the school holidays for me liao & Rivermaya's a great band , heard their songs before & they're awesome ,really rockin'!
Daniel's a BIG fan of Rivermaya's music I can assure you haha . Both bands played at the international pattaya festival a few months back & also met up for the 1st time during the mtv asia aid at bangkok in march & yes looks like his wish finally come true haha , for him only that's . Rivermaya's a great band & now I'm hoping that I can go & attend the gig WOO . If mama allow , it will be something great that I can look forward to after my exams YAY & wow look at the pics on how Bar None looks inside : http://www.barnoneasia.com/inside.html It looks really neat if you asked me !

Going & planning to watch Corpse Bride tomorrow in Jurong Point . Hopefully I can get the 1.30pm timeslot . I wanted to watch at Westmall but the 'nearest' timing I can watch's at 2.30pm !!!! & I wanna keep my date with Martin ;) ( well in this case Martin Mystery hee hee ) I never failed to watch a single episode of it , yet even though now Disney Channel keeps on showing it in encore mode but so what , I don't care bcos' it's a show that rocks.

Funnily enough , even though Diana's his stepsister ( rather than fiancee) in the show , in some episodes & scenes , they behave & got a little bit too close for comfort . Hmmm....

Oh well in this case here , looks like I have to folk out the $ to watch Corpse Bride on my own boo :( any1 wanna follow & accompany me to watch it ??

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Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Some facts about Daniel Powter that I found out yesterday on MTV & a song I'm digging now.

Some facts about Daniel Powter :

- He's a vegetarian but he eats fish
- He loves to do daring things
- He loves jumping off cliffs!!!
- He loves playing the piano (DUH that's why his album's piano based)
- He's 34 years old & he's from Canada

Low Millions - Eleanor
Fine I understand
Okay with me
If that's the plan
You can take the stereo the TV and the video
The bed the sheets and pillows before you go
But for now unlock the door
What are we doin' all this for
Let me make you dinner one last time
Then you'll go your way and I'll go mine

[Chorus:]
And I won't call you baby anymore
Won't call you baby
Like I did before
Won't call you baby anymore
Eleanor

You left your smell
You left your taste
You left me here with my mistakes
And I can't relate to what you say I've done
But just for you I'll bite my tongue

[Chorus]

Eleanor I miss you
Eleanor be well
Eleanor I wish you'd release me from your spell

Come On
Eleanor
You can do it

[Chorus] (2x)

Heh I guess Jenny would already guessed that this's my current fave song at the moment , a new & great rocking band from U.S that Daniel introduces to me . I remembered when I received the song from Faizal , WAH , I had it on repeat on my mp3player for 8-9 times , no kidding bcos' the song's SUPER catchy & very good ! I really wanna get their album Ex-Girlfriends probably during the holidays then YAY

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Monday, September 26, 2005

OK I have to confess , my mood hasn't been really good over the past few days as I been dead & very very worried over the E- Business Project (EBP) due to the fact that it carries a lot of marks & it's starting to grat on me in a really really bad way.

The Call Centre Management project's gonna wrap up tomorrow after the 6 of us present & hand up the hard copy to Ms Yeo BUT still it's the EBP that's killing me , emotionally that's bcos' obviously for starters , the 3 of us suck at computer programming language & none of us have experience in photoshop to do the pics.

I'm counting on some people to help me do the pics as I don't have any experience when comes to using photoshop at all !

The funny thing's , the guys in the class doesn't seem to get worried over this at all , I don't know why ... but I guess a worst case of scenerio's not/haven't started doing the project at all than started doing it already but stuck . I think the 1st case's the worst , don't you think ??

Alternatively , I can ask Mr Bernard & Miss Derry for help & I mean a LOT of help . The html & coldfusion codes , I copied from her , all I need now is to modify them but obviously I ain't got a clue :( . *sigh* really have to ask for professional help this time or else the 3 of us gonna fail & flunk this project for good !!!!

My life has never been smooth sailing I can assure you . It takes a lot for me to come this far as everyday I face challenges , big or small . For this project , I'm not so picky about the marks , I just wanna get this over & done with . I could throw in the towel for good now but I will be seen as a failure for not doing anything right & somemore Su & Zhen will hate me for life as the marks will have a big impact for our overall course once we finished the course next feb/march.

I'm no superwoman myself but I will always remember what Daniel said to me & also a quote from Thomas Edison : "Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up." This statement's so true , I'm not going to let this issue bug me down big time !!! The guys in class ( excluding Faris , Da Hua,Tee Yong,Jia Wei,Sadiq,Keith) I have seen are already failures to me so I don't think I want to follow in their footsteps, not even 1 bit as I have a goal ultimately : to futher my studies in Ngee Ann after I finish my course in ITE.

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Sunday, September 25, 2005

Daniel & I haven't been communicating with each other for the past few days . I think he's really & very busy with his work & not to mention on the band as I remembered him telling me that Oct will be a KILLER month for the 5 of them as they will be doing tons of gigging in the whole stretch of Oct . It's not like I had a quarrel with him & all haha :P

Other than Jenny , he has been really awesome & very supportive of me & whatever I do since 'accidentally' knowing him for almost a year now . I can safely say that my life has been a bit better for the past few months after knowing & not to forget meeting & talking to him in person thrice (so far ) . I'm not going to deny that when I saw his & the others's pics in LIME last oct, he was the 1st person who caught my eye as he's really boyish in pics & in real life ( ok maybe not hahaha ,oops just kidding dude! ) & I did nursed a bit of a crush on him but subsquently in life , that died down quite fast I must add & besides ,he's like 12 years my senior so no way man . Somemore he's taken so off limits haha ! The gf ( whom I know her name but not gonna say it due to protecting her identity) is lucky so if she ever bully him , she's gonna get it from me . All the fangs & claws will come out ! *meow*

But aside from that , it's really cool to know & befriend someone who has so much drive in what he did & does in the music industry as I hope in the future , I can carve a career in it due to the fact that I have been interested in working in it for the longest time & now ,I just see him as my big brother . & when I say big , I mean it haha !

I don't know but it seems to me that I got this certain kinda chemistry in that I managed & able to click with Daniel despite the BIG age gap between the both of us . Probably on the fact that I sorta have a lot of the same characteristics & qualities that he also has which makes it really easy for me to talk to him on anything under the sun so yeah it's neat :) :)

& also his opinions on the music industry & introducing some great artistes for me to check out & listen like most recently Low Millions ! Others including The Bravery , Gavin DeGraw too !!

From time to time , I always been bugged with low self esteem , depression ,the tendency that I'm fat/ugly/stupid/whatever & the most fatel 'killer' PMS , I try to look at the badges that he gave me last year which I pin & stuck on my pencil case & also remembering some really soild & good advice he gave me over those issues . I think both of them will benefit me a LOT in the long run & in my life overall.

I could meet him up again next week no doubt about it but my exams are coming & I wanna do well for the both of them before wrapping up my 3rd semester so I probably gonna see him on the day that I finished my 1st & last paper for the final exams so yup have to wait for a while but I guess it will be worth it & I totally can't thank him enough for everything even though I know for a fact he wouldn't be reading this but oh well doesn't matter anything to me :P

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Saturday, September 24, 2005

The Cold Storage at Ulu Pandan brought in another Endulge Bar, this time it's the Peanut Butter Cups YAY . It cost S$3.10 & only 2g of net carbs . I think after I'm done with the Peanut Butter Wafers which have 4g of net carbs , I probably gonna switch to the Peanut Butter Cups & Caramel Nut Chew. & I bought 2 packets of the Peanut Butter Cups . Inside each packet there're 3 of them WOO & of course 3 packets of Caramel Nut Chew which I must add are FABOO & taste just like regular snickers bars yum

Net Carbs:
Caramel Nut Chew : 2g
Peanut Butter Cups : 2g
Mint Chocolate : 4g
Chocolate Creme: 4g
Peanut Butter Wafers : 4g

This are the ones that they're currently selling . It's a no brainer that I'm going to buy the 1st 2 that contains 2g lesser of carbs than the other 3. & I pop by 7-11 & was surprised to see them selling some new sugar free Splenda sweets mints . Splenda's a type of sweetener that Atkins approved , they approved 3 sweetners in total in which Splenda's their fave as it's 600 YES 600 times sweeter than normal sugar & that it wouldn't impact the blood sugar in a terrible way . It cost S$1.70 for 40 mints & there're 4 flavors to choose from. I didn't buy it in the end but probably next week or the weeks to come as soon as I finish the bags of sugar free sweets in the fridge heh

I bought a big plate of Caesar Salad & some meatballs there . It's FABOO & I think starting this week , I'm gonna have a salad for lunch over the weekend . I ate like 1/3 of it eariler & gonna save the rest for tomorrow as salads in general can't be kept for long in the fridge.

After this , gonna study for my CA & hit the gym again . Ah since when have I really use my weekends to the fullest ? lol

Starting to get really bored with the internet & with the computer in general so what I planning to do is beside going to start studying for my CA , I'm gonna step up on my exercise program duration time.

I probably will be exercising instead of 1 hour daily , I try to make it 2 hours of course not at 1 shot but probably like break it to 1 hour in the morning & 1 hour in the afternoon. I'm not sure whether will I be dedicated a not to do that haha but I try lah , no promises here . After all , I'm getting bored with the limited choices I can do in the net & on the computer so ...

& now Hui Li told me that she decided to throw in the towel & stop doing Atkins as she felt that she doesn't have the determination & will to carry on eating that way . For her I respect her decision as doing this is something that you have to eat & do for long life & requires lots of sheer iron willpower . She has done it for 3 weeks so should give her credit for that.

For me I make the decision to do so in July as I was tired of being fat , hate going on diets which I lose some weight but gain it all back & most importantly , I don't want to head in a route filled with lots of health related diseases like diabetes,heart attack basically all illnesses that're related to obesity. It can be hard at times especially when the temptation's there but I always told myself , if I can do it , why not ?

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Friday, September 23, 2005

Bugger , wanted to start studying for my next CA but guess what ? I bummed around at home , my arse glued to the computer seat for AGES without moving & downloading tons of pics from the net . Aiyoh , over the weekend I better start or I mean by tomorrow or else I will so gonna fail the CA I swear ! *slaps myself hard on both cheeks on my face*

Gonna ask mama for $ again to buy the chocolate bars .Strictly gonna buy just the peanut butter wafers & caramel nut chew . The chocolate creme unfortunately doesn't stand out & the caramel nut chew taste like a normal snickers's bar yum so yup going to buy & stock up on them tomorrow as I'm a chocolate & sweets freak . Thank god there're low carb & sugar free options to them or else I will die big time . It's pricey yeah but the suga free & low carb dessert,sweets & chocolate bars taste just as good as their counterparts bcos' when I'm eating them , at least I'm eating something that's good but wouldn't affect my blood sugar level or make me gain weight , provided the fact that I gorge on them that's !

& I'm not going to buy the Advantage bars again as they're way too pricey (S$5.95 per bar!!) & taste like cardboard :S Endulge bars are waaay better than them , anytime!

Had a great rockin time with Hui Li eariler . Met her at Clementi MRT station after sorting the stuff for Han Lei . We headed to The Soup Spoon that's located at Raffles City Shopping Centre & hell the food I mean the soups there are FABOO . We ordered a large bowl of Velvety Mushroom Stroganoff which's supposedly the star soup of it & wah it's fanastic & also a small soup of Caesar Salad yum . I usually don't eat salads but this's an exception heh heh

Velvety Mushroom Stroganoff

"Feels almost like eating fresh mushrooms out of the field. The mushrooms are so smooth, they glide down the throat. This soup is overpowering with the aroma of mushrooms perfect for mushroom lovers."

Regular & large sizes are available in which I think the large's more value for $ even though the price's a bit steep , $6.70 to be exact but I can honestly say that this's so far the best mushroom soup I ever drank . It's so damn good I tell you ! & it's worth every buck we paid . We spilt the cost so it was not so bad at the end of the day.

Then we headed to Marketplace supermarket to look around & to our surprise , we spotted Sweet N Low sugar free sweets at the health corner & also sugar free Jell- O in geletin form YAY . There were lime & strawberry banana jelly flavor so we bought the strawberry banana flavor . Just pour hot water into the mix & chilled it in the fridge in cups . Sweet

Hui Li bought the fruit sugar free sweets while I bought the coffee sugar free sweets . It's great as both of them including the jelly , has O YES O net grams of carbs so that's awesome !

Come to think of it , like every 2 weeks should go to The Soup Spoon to drink the soup & not to mention buy the sugar free sweets & jelly as I don't think other outlets do sell them . The Cold Storage at Ulu Pandan is where I buy the Atkins Endulge Bars ( Peanut Butter Wafers & Caramel Nut Chew ) ,sausages & other meat at the grill while NTUC is where I buy the nuts , cheese which are usually sold cheaper as compared to Cold Storage & Marketplace.

I been loving Low Millions's music for the past few days . Faizal from GW's my lifesaver haha , he sent me Eleanor & Statue & can't thank him lots to get me the songs . I'm seriously considering to get their debut album Ex-Girlfriends as both songs totally rock , especially Eleanor . I had it on repeat like 6-7 times eariler as it's SUPER catchy !

Randomness:

- NEVER ever buy Chicken Whooper Jr from Burger King ever again . What I got was just a few pieces of pathetic lettuce leaves without any dressing aka mayo/sour cream & a rather misery grilled chicken patty that's so freaking salty . I best stick to buying the original Whooper instead with all the trimmings

- Couple of music videos have been overplaying to death on MTV everytime I on the TV in the morning . Some of them are Mariah's Shake It Off , Black Eyed Peas's Don't Lie , Coldplay's Speed Of Sound

- Gonna send Han Lei a HUGE bag of papers to her later on after school as I wanted to sell my old copies of TOTPs as it was taking a big space on my shelf . Aiyoh , she's so gonna repay me back BIG TIME in anyway she can as it's SO freaking heavy haha . I cut up articles & stuff on McFly , Atomic Kitten , Girls Aloud , Westlife with McFly making the bulk of the stuff.

- Lots of Electrico-related activities gonna take place in the days & weeks to come . Daniel told me all about it & wah & I thought I was the only 1 who's caught up with things . Poor thing... 2nd album will be delayed once again due to some internal problems , hopefully it will supress the 1st album in terms of production quality , I bet it will as this time , the lyrics & melodies will be more organic & serious ( no offense Dave heh ) . 1st album's lyrics that Dave wrote was all goofy & all but this time , there's meaning to the 2nd album especially the 'An Anthemn For Our Generation' WOOOO

- Listening to Electrico's music always seems to make me feel better hahaha especially Crowd Killer :P , wonder why ? Is it bcos' of the fact that Daniel produced the melody for it ? I have no idea *sniggers* & was wondering how he will react when he saw my latest email to him on that issue . Hopefully he wouldn't freak out lah & be 100% supportive for me :)

- Have you wonder what's a Doppleganger ? From yesterday's Martin Mystery , he tackled 1 which get outta hand & in the end, the evil Doppleganger started stealing faces that looks like the original owner ! a Doppleganger is believed to exist in everyone's bodies . It's that little tiny voice inside you that makes & 'tell' you to do things that you're not supposed or taboo to you . Something like your evil alter ego twin or in some cartoon shows , where you see a person with an angel or an devil sitting on the person's shoulders . That devil's a Doppleganger which I for sure have lol

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Thursday, September 22, 2005

My mood was rotten today , I been a total bitch in school & I would like to apologise to everyone whom I gave the cold shoulder & not to mention I snapped at them when they talked to me !!

I been really 'stressfull' & depressed over the fact on the E Business Project(EBP) & also the upcoming CA & exam next month & also juggling 3 'jobs' everyday is so tough & I thought I'm the only 1 living a normal life... NOT . Bah , it doesn't help that I'm not computer programming language inclined at all when comes to the EBP . Me , Su-Hanna,Wan Zhen are selling mp3players skins for selected players for it & the worst thing's there's no head nor tail to it even though the codes & all Miss Derry has given us but it's so tortous especially when comes to modifying them !

To be honest , I rather be caught studying for a mountain of tests than to do the EBP as it's so freaking hard & the deadline & presentation of it is on 7th next month . BAH , we 3 really need to get some kind folks with good strong foundation in computer programming language especially ColdFusion & Flash to help us man . In a way , from tomorrow onwards , all lessons on Web Applications Development(WAD) will be dedicated to doing the EBP as they're both inter-related so in some ways it's a relief but it's still not ENOUGH

God , I was so drained out mentally eariler as you know , I'm the biggest worrier in the world , I worry from the biggest to the smallest things everyday . Typical capricorn me & the heavy downpour rain didn't help much either . I wanted to take bus to Westmall to buy my dinner but I decided to walk to the Clementi MRT station to just I don't know , clear my head & strenghten my thoughts & guess what it worked !!! I don't know why but somehow or another , walking is quite therapeutic & eariler during EBP/WAD , my mind was all about going to burst & I was ready to break down in tears as I couldn't take it anymore bcos' of the unwanted pressure I inflicted on myself & that I was 'threatening' to throw in the towel over the project.

But then when I walked to the MRT station , I suddenly strengthen my thoughts & realised that if I were to do that , it will be so silly as it's as good as giving up totally without even laying a finger on it to do so I thought I better don't do that as the EBP is gonna bore a huge % of my marks for my overall module.I mean I already suffered & battled bolts of depression in the past so I don't see the reason NOT to overcome this obstacle again in my life.

While I was on the MRT , I saw Jerel & the others wearing home clothes . They were going somewhere which I don't know where they were heading but everytime I looked at them , I don't know whether should I be disappointed or angry over them . They weren't like that at all last year but time goes by , they started to get really lazy & come to class as & when they feel like it . Hello , earth to them , don't they know that they're gonna waste their folks's $ by just doing that ?

Sad really & Ms Yeo told me that Eng Kiat badly wants to go to poly to futher his studies but with the kind of attitude & behavior he's portaying , I don't think that will be ever gonna happen . Somehow , this bunch of guys in our class seriously need a walk up call in the form of their overall results slip in which everyone will get once we all finish our course next Feb/March. By that time , it will be too late . I know bcos' I have been there & done that in that kinda situation.

Come to think of it , I better learn how to plan my time properly as CA & exams are nearing . I'm gonna cut down on the crazy amount of time I spent everyday on the net & focus on the Call Centre Management (CCM) from tomorrow onwards.

Somehow , I feel so much better now , it's like a big bunden have just been lifted from my shoulders . Probably writing in my blog is therapeutic as well as walking I guess.

I probably get myself a Chicken Whooper burger for my dinner later on as today's dinner's packet . I tried the original Whooper & it's fabooo minus the buns & raw tomatoes & pickles . I actually wanted to buy the chicken a few days ago but ended up buying the gourmet lamb sandwich instead haha . The lamb was fanastic , even though the black pepper sauce was really HOT !

I was peeved off in the morning as mama told me that I better not gone on Atkins for long term & at most stay on it for 6 months . I asked her why & she told me that auntie Sharon & ah yee told her so . I was like whatever bcos' I know for a fact that if I were to fall out the wagon ,I will regain all the weight I lost & worst gain even more weight than ever . She said that I should not cut out rice & all the bad carbs completely but eat smaller portions instead. Hello , earth to the 3 of them, if I were to do that , I will binge & crave carbs so often that I could lose control & go outta mind . I love eating & I certainly don't eat to live at all so I'm not taking any chances at all . Besides , with all the positive & negative reports about Atkins , I'm not really surprised that nasayers around me will say such things.

I don't bother about it seriously bcos' at the end of the day , I will be the 1 losing all the extra weight & feeling even better than ever which's the fact that now , I have already accomplished 1/2 of my goal so to whoever who ask me to stop doing it , just F off freaks! Then again mama should consider doing Atkins since she has been complaining so much lately that she's fat . If she's fat , then how about me man ? Fatter -.-

As they say , pictures don't lie so let's see whose mouth will drop when they see me next month during Ah Gek's wedding dinner & next Jan's Chinese New Year then.

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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

God haven't had a GOOD home cooked meal for AGES ! Well not really home cooked lah , only the rice & the soup are haha . Ah Pa has the tendency to buy dishes from hawker centres for dinner & today wow , he bought some neat stuff !

The ironic thing's that I always said that I HATE eating chicken but end up eating it almost pratically everyday haha . So eariler for dinner , I had spring chicken ,spinach & mushroom soup that Ah Pa made . Aiyoh , he bought 2 YES 2 whole chickens & everyone managed to finish 1 1/2 of it hahahaha bcos' it was just too damn good . He wanted me to finish the last 1/2 =.= , I told him cannot lah & asked him to keep it for tomorrow . Wah now I'm seriously stuffed like crazy !!!

On another happy note , Kum Mo has given birth already YAY . Mama told me that she gave birth at about 5pm at Thomas Hospital which's the same hospital that the 3 of us were born . omg I haven't been there for AGES & I probably pay her a visit this Sat or Fri depending on what mama said.

OK I took the CA eariler in the morning . Meh , I'm SO gonna be dead meat :S , everything's SOOOOOO hard wail :( . I don't care about getting the highest marks or whatever , I just wanna pass it . 25/50 can already lah for me haha

So that already took off a load of bunden from my shoulders , I think I'm gonna concentrate in starting working on the Call Centre Management project & also for the CA & final exam that will commerce in the next few weeks to come . Besides I wanna get the project over & done with !

Before I stepped into school this morning , I ran into an ex teacher of mine Ms Kelly Chew on the way to school . Man , I haven't seen her for a really long time & was really surprised to bump into her real early . She taught me Banking Financial Services for 2 - 3 months ++ last semester before Miss Belinda Lee returned & took over from her . It's nice to see her again , I probably email her in the days to come.

I downloaded a lot of music yesterday , the bulk of it comes from The Bravery . Man their songs are really rocking , I love all of them !! My current faves at the mo are Unconditional , An Honest Mistake , Fearless, No Brakes , Swollen Summer , Out Of Line

I saw a link in Su-Hanna's blog entry which I thought it's really interesting. It's supposed to tell you what your name says about you. I thought I give it a shot . The link : What Your Name Means wanted to use my real name but nothing came out in the database grr so had to use my english name:

"Although the name Shayera creates an interest in the deeper aspects of life, we emphasize that it causes a restless intensity that defies relaxation. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the heart, lungs, bronchial area, and solar plexus.

The name of Shayera has given you sensitivity and appreciation for the finer and deeper things in life. You can enjoy reading, study, and contemplation about many different subjects. When your interests or curiosity are aroused, you work intensely at new undertakings, but your interests often wane when you encounter drudgery and monotony, with the result that you leave many things unfinished.

Your name has taken you into many bitter experiences. The greatest lack in your life is stability and peace of mind. A peaceful and quiet environment, especially out in nature, is one of your greatest desires, but you are constantly taken into chaotic conditions."

Oh my god , everything that's said in here is SO me ! FREAKY !!!!

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Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Finally I finished all the Jello in the fridge . No wonder it's the Jello that's making me really moody & not to mention seems to be stalling my weight loss & besides it's too expensive . You imagine , I have to buy the Endulge bars too you know!!!

My CA's tomorrow , very nervous as now I heard that the paper will be even more harder than ever . NOoooooo :S :S :S . Had a crash course on agar agar the paper standard will be like eariler & man , no pushover at all !!!! Aiyo , I just hope Heaven on top will pray for me & not to mention I have to pray for myself to pass & breeze though the paper as I really SUCK at computer programming languages. Oh well , time to mug later on over this then ...

After this has been wrapped up , I can start doing the powerpoint for the Call Centre Management as I seem 'skilled' in this area haha . Found some really lovely wallpapers on the net already , going to start doing it after I finish my CA. Initally I thought I should study for the Call Centre Management CA but Ms Yeo told me that it will be on 3rd Oct so I thought better finish the project up 1st sia ... & the final exam for it will be on 17th Oct & then holidays YAY

My holidays supposed to start at 31st Oct but I only have 1 paper to sit for which's the beginning of when exams kick off YAY YAY so this means that the class will start 2 weeks eariler than the rest WOO before returning back to school for the final semester on 21st Nov . Man , I really can't wait for the holidays to come my way . BRING IT ON!

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Monday, September 19, 2005

Anyway after giving some serious thoughts , I decided to stop meeting & seeing Daniel on a weekly basis at the moment as I have a lot of tests , exam & projects to do so AKA a lot of work tied up . Ugh , that's horrible man but not to forget , my exams will start next Oct probably like the 3rd week of it so yup going to stop doing that for now.

Besides I haven't really started revision on my CAs & exams so ya man I better buck up & start now & not like last time where I panic at the last min during the 2nd semester where I had to study for all 3 subjects within the last 3 days before they started ,crazy man !!! It's a fluke that I managed to ace all of them somehow , what's this man ???? but no I'm not taking any chances again now so yeah hopefully he will understand if not I don't know , use a knife & threaten & all haha , no lah just kidding. Anyhoo he has really understanding & totally supportive of everything I do so far & I just can't thank him enough for doing so :) even though at times I will be whining to him over some stuff ha

Anyhoo, I'm going to email him after this to tell him of my decision & I probably see him the next time on the day that my exams for the 3rd semester end ! Sometimes I just gotta do the right things at the right time...

UPDATE : probably I wouldn't do this yet , I'm not really sure . At most I just meet him every 2 weeks & stop doing that 2 weeks before my actual final exams come . I haven't email him yet but I think I have to take a few days to really consider my decision carefully ...*in mock horror* you could say that I can't live without him HAHA :P

Supposed to start work on the Call Centre Management project but nothing has been done so far haha , bcos' everyone's SO busy preparing for this Wed's Web Applications Development CA & also for the upcoming Call Centre Management CA so everyone agreed that after both CAs has been wrapped up , then we start doing on the project.

Here's my weekly exercise regime to get & maintain my 'lean' & 'rock hard' body hahaha:

Everyday if possible , I do fast walking on the treadmill 30- 45 mins a day , weight training & lifting dumb bells . I do alternate , for my upper & lower body when comes to weight training to give the muscles a rest for a day . & also tons of walking as well. I could do sit ups or crunches but was worried that if I were to do that , my back problem will surface again so that stay put !

God I never know it's so 'overextreme' after I type it out haha but it's not as bad as Hui Li . Her exercise program's more intense than mine which's nothing as compared to her. & I could safely say that exercising makes me sane as schoolwork can be very harsh & crazy !

Ok off to the gym now before heading to school !

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Sunday, September 18, 2005

God want to say paiseh to Jen for helping me again . I feel so malu & embarassed that she had to keep on helping me on my behalf on some stuff haha :P but at least I 'bride' her with Jo O'Meara's debut solo single What Hurts The Most. It's quite terrible of me to do that I know but what to do ? *sheepishly*

Wah , today's Britney Spears & Kevin Federline's 1st year wedding aniversary ! WOAH how time files man.

Now Jen , hopefully he will reply back . I know I know , I'm beyond redemptations but what to do ? At most I do something for you to repay back your kindness HAHA

The Bravery - Fearless
Too many fingers, too many thumbs
Something wicked this way comes
The best time I've ever had
Waiting around for something bad

Fearless, fearless, ohh
And I know that's why you love me
Fearless, fearless, come on
And I know that's why you love me, chica
And I know that's why you love me, chica
And I know that's why you love me, chica

Oh, so fearless
Oh, so fearless
Oh

This is what it's all about
Take me in and eat me out
Pins and needles in my arms
Oh yes, your lucky charms

Fearless, fearless, ohh
And I know that's why you love me
Fearless, fearless, come on
And I know that's why you love me, chica
And I know that's why you love me, chica
And I know that's why you love me, chica

Oh, so fearless
Oh, so fearless
Oh, so fearless
Oh, so fearless
Oh, yeah
Oh yeah what a song , this's the kinda music that I'm currently into : harder rock music with different shades of genres to it . Pop music's dull & BORING as what Jenny would say haha.
So what Brendon of The Killers slam The Bravery for copying their music & vice versa , I say the more the merrier ! Sam & the guys are making waves with the brand of music , I don't care what people say , The Bravery are 1 good band to look out for & I do hope that they will continue to release more great singles such as this , Unconditional & An Honest Mistake.& did I mention that there's a really damn cool video to go along with it ?

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Saturday, September 17, 2005

Caught 2 new videos on MTV Brand New this afternoon & wow awesome , just awesome

1st video I saw was The Bravery's current new single Fearless. I think it's the track that I love the most from them , 2nd's Unconditional & of course An Honest Mistake.The video's so unique , Sam & the guys were playing separately on speed boats & they were standing on them while a driver was driving them while the band was doing their thing !! WOAH & it's in black & white just like An Honest Mistake . I thought the concept's totally cool & not to mention the song ROCKS!

2nd video was Good Charlotte's The Chronicles Of Life And Death & I thought the video's waaay kick ass than We Believe . It's like a cartoon while they're singing about this guy & recaping from his young to his old days & eventually his death hence explain the title . Song wise , it's brillant . Too bad Chris has to leave due to health problems *sigh*

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Friday, September 16, 2005

Mama gave me some $ today bcos' I told her that I want to go do some grocery shopping at Cold Storage after I finished school . I spent a BOMB on the stuff , it wouldn't be so bad if I'm doing Atkins alone but this time I have to buy double the stuff as Hui Li on it as well d'oh :S

Come to think of it , I really have to draw up a budget plan as I think my spending habits are getting outta hand especially when comes to buying the Atkins chocolate bars which's the only special food I need . After I finish the Advantage bars , I'm going to switch to Endulge bars bcos' they're cheaper & not to mention tastier heh heh

I went to Cold Storage & I saw that they brought in another Endulge flavor which's Cameral Nut Chew yum . I bought 2 packets in addition to the Peanut Butter & Chocolate Creme . I also bought sugar free gelatin,cheese,sausages & whipped cream that I think will last me for the next few weeks . I decided that the gelatin with whipped cream will be eaten only during the weekends as it's too freaking sweet .

In addition to the 3 flavors that I mentioned , they also were selling Mint Chocolate but Mint ??? Ick , it's like eating toothpaste haha so I didn't bought it . & before all that happened , I bought my dinner already which's the Grilled Chicken Foldover from Mcdonalds as every Fri's 'packet day' lol . Ah Pa's too lazy to buy dinner on Fri man don't know why -.- . I only eat the fillings inside as the pita bread's full of carbs so I had to scoop out the ingredients into a plate & I threw away the pita bread . I like it actually as it's stuffed with chicken patties,lettuce,onions & garlic sauce but without the tomatoes . The strangest thing's I wouldn't mind if the raw tomatoes are chopped into smaller chunks just like what Taco Bell does but if it's like slices & all , I don't like it ! I know I'm weird... but yes I love garlic a lot !!!!!! just don't give me ginger , I will kill you as I hate the taste.

Rob Thomas Recruits Wife For Personal Video

" Matchbox Twenty frontman Rob Thomas has recruited his wife Marisol to appear in the video for the very song she inspired. Thomas wrote 'Ever The Same' in just a few hours in the midst of his wife's two-year struggle with a rare auto-immune disorder and the now healthy beauty took a starring role in the song's video shot in Brooklyn, New York. The rocker says, "Basically the song says, 'If you need me, I'm here.' It was the quickest I have ever written a song. It just came out. So it was really special to us." Marisol adds, "Now we are completely appreciative of every day we've got. Everything is like starting over." The video also features That 70's Show star Wilmer Valderrama. "

Aw bless that's really sweet & I love Ever The Same even though I wish Rob would release When The Headache Ends instead as that song was also written & inspired by his wife.

Ooh..I'm getting goosebumps now hee hee

FINALLY it's Friday lalalalala so aka TGIF / Thank God It's Friday YAY

Dang , I wanted to hit the gym this morning but now it's raining very heavily , raining cats & dogs . Looks like I probably have to bring a big umbrella to school as a small 1 can't even shelter me for nuts.After school , I plan to head to Cold Storage to do a bit of marketing . Wanted to buy the Advantage Bars but decided to buy the Endulge Bars instead as they're cheaper & more tastier haha & some other things as well.

Mmm... does this mean that I have to make a shopping list of what I plan to buy ? Ooh.. I better be as now I seem to be getting more forgetful d'oh :S

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Thursday, September 15, 2005

Watched some MTV eariler & when I 1st on the TV , argh ,they were showing The Diary Of Jesse McCartney !!!!!!! but they were showing the last 10-15 mins of it BOO but still it was a good watch heh heh , Jesse looks so boyish in it hahaha but too bad he's taken BOO . I saw pics of him & his girlfriend & erm... I thought she looks taller than him ha

I also managed to caught the video of this new US band called Low Millions & the 1st single taken from their debut album Ex-Girlfriends . It's called Statue & it was the 1st time I saw & heard the song . I really like it , very catchy & rocking track . It's rock music but somehow it's very easy on the ears & this's the band that Daniel was talking & raving about to me over the past few days . He caught their showcase at DXO at Esplanade a couple of days ago & Maksim opened for them !!!!!!!!!!

I think I might get their album as he said that Low Millions performed like pros like they were performing & rocking out at a stadium even though DXO's a bar ! Well hey that's the opinion from a rock star so he can't go wrong with it innit?

Had 4 hours of Web Applications Development today , crazy man !!!! Yes you heard me right 4 !!! Why? To prepare everyone for next Wed's 2nd CA which I have no damn confidence at all , not even 1 bit :S

Well I just pray hard that it wouldn't be so hard lah haha but I doubt it since I suspect Miss Derry's the setter but hey , sometimes whatever I pray or wish for , it comes true haha & so does cursing people

OK this morning my day was ruined on what I saw in ggates . I don't really know what happened yesterday but 2 stupid whores & bitches who obviously think that they're great but are not reduced a member who's a boy in there to tears via MSN . So a whole series of threads were fired away & ended up having a lot of catfights where all the fangs & claws come out

Those idiots know who they're , I don't like them from the start anyway , it's like the whole ggates is turning out to be a place filled with sad,childish people who think that by picking fights,they're seen as growns up . GOD,grown up you fools !!! Even Hui Li who's older than you by 1 , is mature & acts her age .

Anyway I don't give a damn about them ,everyone in there know how their attitudes are & besides I believe in Karma , what goes around comes around . If what they really did to that boy is true , well they will be punished in the long run . What kind of punishments? Only God knows...

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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Met Daniel earlier for teh again at a cafe besides his workplace . Wanted to go to the coffee shop nearby but it was FREAKING hot like crap so gave up so we all settled for plan B which's to go to Whatever Cafe that's air conditioned LOL .

It was great meeting & seeing him again & nah , this time I wasn't so freaked out by him again hahaha . After all , it's like meeting my brudder face2face for the 2nd time so that's really cool . Too bad we only stick around for 1 hour before he had to go back & work again but ah that's fine with me . After all ,work sucks & he only can take a few mins off during a coffee break before going back to working like hell again :(

I showed him the freaking terrible & ugly pic of the band that was printed on yesterday's Today & I burst out laughing in the cafe until almost everyone was like ' who's this siao woman laughing ' lol . I let him see the pic & the 1st reaction he gave me was O.o HAHAHA . He was like WTF & also laughed over it as he told me that it was NOT supposed to be that way . He mentioned that Des,Dave & his hair were supposed to be all flat & not looking like durians lmfao . & after that , he's gonna sms the photographer who 'sabo' them to look like that in the papers *laughs out loud* with a *ahem* nasty message . & I thought using photoshop or paintshop is good , guess not in this case ahahaha

Luckily I showed him that or else he will be forever kept in the dark over this matter HAHA

I asked him why the band was planning to shoot pics in a really dark moody environment . He was like bcos' it's the direction that everyone was aiming for . I thought cool & neat ! I think he will emailed me the non 'doctorated' pics & said that they're MUCH MUCH better than the 1 in Today hee & eariler I got the email from him , I saw the original pic & YES 100000000x better than the 1 in Today & he jokingly said that Des & Dave's hair look like Rooster LMFAO

& not to forget he was telling me what're the upcoming activities will be happening in the months to come which I don't think I will be 'announcing' in here as I feel people should find them out themselves haha but no lah , I guess he has a reason for telling me all these things in advance so I'm grateful for him for doing that so nope , not saying anything in here. & I also asked how's the progress on the 2nd album too.

Before I left , he told me to probably meet him up again next week should I want to stop by his workplace again . Come to think of it , I should meet up with him every week if possible for weekly teh sessions heh heh hopefully he doesn't mind . I don't for sure but yes it was nice seeing & talking to an old friend again :)

I forgot to off my mp3player & I only discovered that in the morning so now I'm charging it in school LOL with my cable , damn I'm so careless man

Poor thing mama's on MC today bcos' she's just too exhausted . She had 2 days's MC for yesterday & today so she decided to take the day off today . Must be the fact that she watched too much football -.-

& oh HAPPY BIRTHDAY Su-Hanna !!!! Finally you're officially legal to drink & drive hee hee , may tons of good things come your way babe :D :D Just hope you wouldn't get sabo by us later on lol ;)

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Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Look at me , I'm supposing to be studying for my next week's Web Applications Development CA2 & also for the Call Centre Management CA but I'm here typing this entry down d'oh :S . I'm so lazy , my perfect day is to sleep all day until I'm like Snoozer aka the sleeping 'beauty' hamster in Hamtaro: The Animated Series HAHA

I'm such a pig , I love sleeping so much that it's like a drug lol . I'm such a lazy ass I tell you , forever can't move at home unless my mum yells at me too . Oh well I just have to tahan now & pull though this to breeze though both CAs

New Electrico Pic
I scanned this in the afternoon when I saw their pic in Today . I was dumbfounded when I saw it bcos' I was like ' har, what's up with the hair especially for Des,Dan & Dave?????' LOL Des & Dave's hair look like porcupine & wonder why all 5 of them are in dark clothes & look so moody ?????? maybe bcos' the pic was taken in the morning that's why haha . I really don't know , I have to check up with Dan when I meet him up tomorrow afternoon for teh . Wonder what his reaction & answer will be lol

Supposed to go to attend the dialogue session in which I have to meet the director of ITE with the others in class but instead I came back home as I finished school at 10am today :S so if I were to wait until that start , it will be a staggering 4 1/2 hours long wait man !!!!! due to the fact that Ms Yeo's on MC for today & tomorrow :( that's why her lessons were cancelled . Poor thing hope she will be OK in due time

Anyway me & the rest don't wish to go as I remembered she said that it's optional . Besides I don't want to be pressurized again by the director to the extent that I get nervous breakdowns & all . I mean , only the top 5% of the whole cohort will get to attend the session so it's quite a feat yeah but I'm the type of person who doesn't want people to get behind my back to push me to work even harder & futher ! I have my limits & I don't wish to have any panic attack coming my way bcos' I know for a fact that if I were to go later on , wah , the director will ask me to go for interviews lah to get more established medals & all which I don't want

I mean I appericate the fact that my results are good but I don't want to go to the extent that I wanna be an over achiever . I rather hide at 1 corner & just do my own homework without people butting in .

So now with the fact that I'm home damn early , I want to focus on working on my projects & study for my upcoming CA next week & also hit the gym in the later afternoon.

Put some awesome music in my mp3player yesterday night , CDs from Craig David & Marion Raven.

I listened to Marion's debut solo album on the bus on my way to school & it's amazing , all the songs are killers no fillers & she's really good , I do hope that she can go far as she has great songwriting talents & not to mention she's a very damn good singer . Most of the songs are written for her ex boyfriend who broke her heart really bad so mostly it's angsty rock music but somehow she takes it up a notch even better .

Haven't listened to Craig's latest album The Story Goes yet . Going to listen in the next few days to come

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Monday, September 12, 2005

Kelly Clarkson - Beautiful Disaster (Live)

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He is as damn as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just aint right
It just aint right

Oh when I dont know
I dont know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He is soft to the touch
But afraid at the end he breaks
He is never enough
And still leaves more than I can take
Oh and I dont know
I dont know what he is after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He is beautiful
Lord he's so beautiful
He's beautiful...
I love all the songs on Kelly's Breakaway album , this's another of my personal fave from her . I didn't know that Beautiful Disaster was in her Thankful album until I saw it on her website . Come to think of it the live redition of Beautiful Disaster is 1000000x times better than the studio version of the song . It just can't seem to match up to the standard that she did live in this track. Great stuff!
Pussycat Dolls Feat Busta Rhymes - Don't Cha

[BR:] OK
[PCD:] Aah!
[BR:] Yea!
[PCD:] Aah!
[BR:] Oh, we about to get it just a little Hot & sweaty in this
[PCD:] Ooh, Baby
[BR:] Ladies lets go
[PCD:] Mmm
[BR:] Soldiers lets go
[PCD:] Dolls
[BR:] Lemme talk to ya and just U kno get you to this situation lets go
[PCD:] Fellas

[Busta Rhymes Rap 1:]
You see a bitch get hot
Everytime I come thru
When I step up in the spot
(Are you ready?)
Make the place sizzle
Like a summertime cookout
Prawl for the best chick
Yes I wanna look out
(Lets dance)
So bangin shorty like a belly dancer wit it
Smell good
Pretty skin
So gansta wit it
(Ooh, baby)
No chicks only diamonds in my sleeve
Give me yo number
But make sure
You call before you leave
(Aah!)

[Verse 1:]
I know you like me (I know you like me)
I know you do (i know you do)
That's why whenever I come around
She's all over you
And I know you want it (and I know you want it)
It's easy to see (it's easy to see)
And in the back of your mind
I know you should be home with me

[Chorus:]
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me
(don't cha, don't cha)
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was raw like me
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me
(don't cha, don't cha)

[Verse 2:]
Fight the feeling (fight the feeling)
Leave it alone (leave it alone)
Cause if it ain't love
It just ain't enough to leave a happy home
Let's keep it friendly (let's keep it friendly)
You have to play fair (you have to play fair)
See I don't care (see I don't care)
But I know she ain't gon' wanna share
(ooh)
[Chorus]
[Busta Rhymes Rap 2:]
I see how its goin down
Seem shorty wanna little menage
To pop for or sumthin
Lets Go (Lets Go)
Well lemme get straight to it
A girl just watch when I come thru this
Its the all God Mighty lookin all brand newish
Shorty wanna jump in my Astay Vanguish
Lookin at me all like she really wanna do it
Tryin to put it on me til my balls are black and bluish
You wanna play with a playa
Gurl then play on
Trip out the Shanelle and leave yo lingerie on
Watch me and I am gonna watch you
At the same time
Lookin like u wanna break my back
I gotta good idea for ya
[Chorus 2x:]

OK honestly I didn't like this song initally & the band's name . I thought who on earth would call themselves the Pussycat Dolls ??? but after a few spins on this song , man I'm so in love with it now ! The lyrics are kinda naughty & all but overall the song's about gurrlpower man !Girls rules!!
I thought all 6 dolls in PCD looks like normal girls with so so looks haha with the exception of frontwoman Nicole who's so freaking exotic looking & pretty who is of Hawaiian-Russian-Filipino descent!!. Dang she sorta overshadowed the other 5 dolls hahahahaha . The rest unfortunately doesn't seem to look good leh but that's just me hee . I'm looking forward to the release of their debut album PCD which's out tomorrow!!!
You see what I mean ? LOL

Have a bit of a beating eariler in school haha . No , not the kind where all the Ah Beng & Ah Lian come together & whack me up , I played badminton with my PE teacher for the 1st time & was really surprised to find out that he's really good . Wah for 40 mins , I was running,smacking the shuttercock everywhere in the hall haha , haven't had such a great badminton match in a VERY VERY long time!

It was too bad that he had to leave early to go somewhere for an appointment but he said next Mon rematch haha provided that I bring my full PE attire along , I thought why not?

Nobody taught me how to play badminton , I learnt it all by myself & it's really difficult as I'm left handed even though I had some training in primary school so I improve & improvise here & there so now yeah it's good

God tomorrow have to attend some dialogue session with the director of Business Studies with a few others in my class :S . I don't know what to expect but something tells me that it's relating to my results. Now why can't that happen during school hours instead of after school ? Have to stay in school until 4.30pm tomorrow :(

On a hindside it's good as me & the others are officially Certificate Of Merit or COM holders . This's considered an honour as with this award , I'm guaranteed a seat in the poly should I want to apply next year provided that I don't slack off this year . Oh goody !!

& I have to thank Eric who's my computer techinician for guiding me & fixing the computer's internet connection in my room eariler . Some problems came about & I'm just grateful for all his help for explaining to me slowly on what to do to fix the problem so many thanks again!

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Sunday, September 11, 2005

Man Alicia Keys's so gorgeous in that pic !!!! I have both her albums & she's so talented & amazing beyond words ! She has the brains, the looks & brawn & whatever she wears is never slutty & she's not a pop tart .
Her brand new single Unbreakable will be released soon from her upcoming 'new' album MTV Unplugged that will be out on Oct 11th . I will buy it for sure as I'm such a huge fan of Miss Keys !
& oh wow this's my 200th post already YAY

God my folks are going to be home in due time after they were outta town a few days ago . Seems just like yesterday they were getting ready to go away lol , time sure files a lot

Auntie Juat Ngoh was telling me yesterday that I better don't reach my ideal weight of 62kg or else I will end up looking like a long bean . I was quite insulted frankly speaking but I couldn't care less on what she said . I'm not fussy when comes to reaching my ideal goal weight but I probably hover around like 64-65kg . I still have quite a lot to lose & I already won the battle so I got nothing to lose in here . So I just let nature takes its course & continue to eat foods that I love while losing weight at the same time !

Nasayers,insults or whatever that're directed at my face , I can't be bothered with them at all bcos' ultimately , it's them that have the problem not me.

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Saturday, September 10, 2005

DAMN I went to Marche that's located Heeren with Ah Yee & her friend & the other 2 . God it has been almost 3 years since I last stepped in there & eat as it's a very expensive place to be eating at . No kidding

I had mushroom soup , ribeye steak,caesar salad & garlic butter prawns with salad . Surprisely I love the caesar salad !!! I don't know why but now my fear of eating veggies has been lifted up which means it's a good sign lah since 1 year ago , I hate eating my veggies & don't dare to eat them at all ! So in a way I can say that I like eating veggies now bcos' I have to eat them in absence of all the bad carbs that I cut so whether I like it a not , I have to lah no choice

Heh now I'm thinking of asking mama to bring me to Marche to eat on my 19th birthday which's like exactly 4 months later !!!!!! oh my god , I'm going to be old again haha but yeah I do hope that she wouldn't mind at all *crossing fingers*

OK I have come to a point where I seriously need to decide how to spend my $ wisely on the Atkins bars man . 1stly the details , 1 Atkins Advantage Bar :$5.95 while 1 Atkins Endulge bar : $3.15 or $3.50 depending on which flavor I choose . I love the Peanut Butter wafer flavor at the moment . Then again it might change to Chocolate Creme when I tried it later on heh

Come to think of it ,the Advantage Bar's damn expensive & not so nice & good as Endulge Bars which taste like regular chocolate candy bars so I'm thinking to finish all the Advantage Bars 1st & then switch to Endulge Bars as they're more yummy & cheaper.Somemore taste wise , Endulge Bars are up there while Advantage Bars can taste like crap haha

Luckily Cold Storage sells some of the Atkins products especially chocolate as I'm a chocolate freak & can't live a day without chocolate (hey it's comfort food so what you expect :P ) & so far the only outlet that sells the Endulge Bars is the 1 at Ulu Pandan.King Albert Park outlet used to but no more :(

Besides Hui Li's on it now as well so I just get her to finish the Advantage Bars for me before she's able to eat Endulge Bars after 2 weeks later :)

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Friday, September 09, 2005

Oh dear I'm starting to get outta hand in here so I better do some adjustments FAST before I lose control !!!

I been overspending $ to buy the Endulge & Advantage Bars & not to forget now the sugar free Jell O . Come to think of it the taste's not as nice as I thought it will be now haha .

My plan is to eat 1 Advantage Bar for the weekdays & 1 Endulge Bar during the weekends . So which means that every weekday , I will take 1 or few bites from the bar bit by bit . It seems pathetic yeah but those chocolate bars are really damn expensive so I got no choice.

I always read on the Atkins website that some people eat sugar free jell O for dessert . Initally I thought it's good but subsquently the taste's like ugh & VERY sweet to me so I guess I just stop eating it & focus on the bars instead

Oh this news just hot from the press : Because You Live is Jesse McCartney's 3rd single

YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY & Jimmy Gets High is Daniel Powter's 2nd single after Bad Day which I thought it's quite a bad choice as I feel that either Free Loop,Song 6 & my fave from him Hollywood should be released instead!!!

& I just add Ren on the right side of my bio courtesy of Irfaan heh . I used to use 'Karen' as my English name but found it BORING & so common so I decided to change it to Shayera (or Shay as what Daniel call me hee hee ) but Irf still prefers to call me by my old short form name which's Ren . I think it's kinda stuck & somemore Ren's not a common name as well so I thought why not use it as a nickname? Thanks dude :D

Basically I like a name that's really unique & that another person wouldn't posess the same name as me so when I saw the name 'Shayera' on TV , I thought WOW cool , I'm going to use it ! Somemore & sometimes when you're in a crowd or party , even if your dress sense stands out but you have a boring common name,what's the point?Sometimes an unique name can make you stand out from the rest!

Ugh this's the WORST day ever & not to mention the most pointless morning I ever had

I had to do flag day in the morning to get my CIP point . I supposed to do it from 8-1pm but I gave up after the 1st hour bcos' it's such a thankless depressing 'job' to do . Ugh , I rather be in school having lessons instead of doing this man & it doesn't help that I'm having a big fat blister on my right foot :S

Shoot today's terrible & not to forget it's a Fri man wah lau

On another happy note , I found out that I lost another kg yesterday YAY *dances around* I'm so happy , which means that I'm reaching my goal weight in due time without ever worrying about it at all . It just clicks in my mind so I wouldn't have to moan & whine about this

I tried making sugar free Jell O eariler . The instructions on the Jell O box says that I have to use milk but instead of milk , I substitute it with whipping cream as I'm not allowed to take milk . I bought the vanilla flavor even though chocolate was available.

I made it & eating it now . Um....quite an interesting taste but it's like wow delicious , I wouldn't mind eating it again ehehehe but I'm not sure if I did it correctly by the instructions a not but ah well

Wah lau I'm up so freaking early today , 4.15am to be exact !!!! :O :O I'm so amazed with myself that I'm able to get up this early man . Well what to do , my folks are outta town & I have to do flag day later on at 8am at Jurong East MRT so which means that I have no 1 to wake me up .
Amazingly , I'm never feeling tired nor sleepy now , which's like wow . Must be the fact that my blood sugar's stabilised & that there're no more mood swings or energy slumps for me ever since I cut sugar out of my diet . Cool!
I have lots of things to do later , like making breakfast & after the event finish , I probably call Dan up from his workplace asking him whether is he free a not for teh . Haven't been able to have again due to his toe problem & our conflicts in schedules . Hopefully he wouldn't be so busy today..

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Thursday, September 08, 2005

WOO today's the day when my folks will be outta town & I will turn the whole house upside down with the other 2 ahahaha until Sun afternoon . No lah just kidding , if they're not around , I have a serious big responsiblity to uphold with me being the oldest & not to forget in here it's always the youngest that bullies the youngest -.- .Typical...

Shoot I think I pull a muscle on my right thigh :S I'm having some problems with it since Mon . Hmmmm.... I wonder why but I put some plasters on it at night.Seems to be better , at least now I'm not limping to the extent that I thought I was a puppet haha

Tomorrow I have no school YAY bcos' I have to go to Jurong East MRT to do some flag day to earn the minimum CIP point which's erm.. 1 -.- "" . I have to be there by 8am !!!! Wah lau wonder whether can wake up a not LOL . I'm going with the other 5 in our group . The next class smart lah , everyone all volunteered to go for it as they know that if they go for it ,they have no lessons & they earned their minimum CIP point . How clever of them haha

Time & time again , I will feel really ugly & fat which I think it's quite something common that we girls faced . Sometimes whenever I feel this way , I go & sleep or probably meditate as I know some yoga moves & I believe the words ' ugly' & 'fat' are just something in the inside so I just try not to let that bother me.

Call me overachiever or whatever but I'm seriously thinking to do & start revision on my upcoming Call Centre Management CA & the big exam that will take place next month & not to forget the 2nd Web Application Development CA . To be honest I'm more worried about the latter as I suck as programming language & not to mention quite a lot of concepts to remember . Then again Call Centre Management's also not an easy subject to understand & pass :( .

Which means that I have to cut down doing a lot of things from overspending too much on the net , watch my fave shows on TV & not to forget ARCADE at Westmall !!!! Something that I wouldn't cut down on is going to the gym.Come to think of it it has become an essential part of my life doing exercising. Even if I'm on Atkins but never exercise , it wouldn't work as it takes 2 hands to clap . Besides now with the awesome newfound energy I had , I don't see the reason why I should slack off it.

Part of me is flattering that I'm a good student in class but the other part of me's that I worry too much ! GROAN , typical capricorn,forever a big worrier from the smallest to the big issues . Aiyah , I just need to kick this habit of mine for being a worrier !

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Wednesday, September 07, 2005

So I was supposed to meet Dan for teh eariler but unfortunately he's bugged down with tons of work & meetings after meetings :S I spoke to him over the phone asking him whether can I meet him today but oh well that didn't happened . & then he asked me whether tomorrow or Fri is possible . I told him no as I have to take care of the house & the other 2 bcos' my folks will be outta town tomorrow night until Sun so which means turn the whole house upside down hyuk hyuk :P

I told him probably next week . Then again in my mind , I might consider to wait for a while as I have upcoming projects , tests & exams so which means that I wouldn't be 'free' until I finish my 3rd semester in Oct but I'll see about my schedule , it's not like I'm not going to meet him again haha

I went to Westmall arcade to play games as I was feeling bored to the pits !!! I played the usual Street Fighter which totally rocks ! Who says girls can't play games that guys love ?

As for my weight , hell I lost quite a lot since I started Atkins in July . I decided that I'm going to continue full speed ahead . My ideal weight's supposed to be around 62-77kg . I'm not in that range yet but I reached there eventually . Of course it will be wonderful to reach 62kg but I believed I can be that weight in no time , I just have to be patient instead of using over the counter diet pills & all those slimming centres who seem to me just want to pocket innocent people's hard earned $$

Once I reached my goal weight , the 1st thing I want to do is to approach an image consultant company so that the trainers there can access me on the necessary clothes,makeup & etc that I can use & apply to my everyday dressing in the future instead of shopping a storm 1st . What's the point in doing that where I have zero fashion sense & I'm a clown when comes to makeup ? I think to attend such a course will really damn benefit me in the long run . It will be expensive no doubt about it but definitely worth every buck !

& oh I have to make things clear : I do NOT wear any makeup as I have sensitive skin . At most I just use lip balm as I have cracked lips from time to time..

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