:+: Fine after rain :+:

Ok I seriously need to go into tough boot camp 1st thing tomorrow in the morning once I resume school as I have been pigging out like mad the past 3 days during cny celebrations & now I'm not really feeling good , as in my stomach's bloated .

Usually during every cny , I would eat a lot of the typical cny goodies but this time around , I still eat some but I find that the usual pineapple tarts , bae kwa & love letters doesn't appeal to me much anymore . But it's also good in a way as come on , I only eat such things during cny , on other days nah I wouldn't .

Somemore I realise that if I go back to my normal eating habits , I feel much better & that I don't get all bloated up or depressed for nothing & the past few days , I haven't move my butt out & in a way missed gymming (can't believe I'm saying this ) . Oh well that's me ..

Man after tomorrow , it's back to school boo hoo . Now why cny be any longer eh ? It's so unfair , I want the whole of this week to be holidays free . Time files when you're having so much fun if you ask me .

After today , it's back to diet boot camp for me , I have been pigging out like CRAZY the past few days & funny enough , the skirt that Yee Ma bought for me started to feel loose . When I 1st tried it on 2 weeks ago , it was just nice & now it's starting to feel loose on me haha , maybe later on I need to use a safety pin .

& like every cny , I will give almost 3/4 of whatever I collected during cny to my parents so that they can bank in for me in the bank account . For this year I collected quite a lot which's pretty good .

I will bank in whether my parents tell me or not cos I'm a very terrible spender , if the $ is there , it's gone in a flash so I rather that go into the bank than disappear in a snap !

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Monday, January 30, 2006

How's everyone's cny celebrations so far ? For me , so far so good . Collected a bunch of red packets yesterday from my paternal side & up to now , I haven't open any of them yet , gonna do soon later on after I penned down this entry .

I hope today will be more fun as compared to yesterday as later on in the afternoon , I'm gonna do house visiting at my maternal side.& at the rate that I'm eating , I'm gonna gain back whatever I have lost easily if you ask me haha but don't worry , that will be fixed quite easily once the festive celebrations or should I say house visiting die down.

& surprise surprise , I didn't sweared a word yesterday , yay me =) . Still have 2 more days not to do such a thing ! Man ... it's harder than I ever thought but still it's not as bad as eating vegeterian .

I was pratically dying in a way from going 1/2 vegeterian yesterday & I can't even do it for 1 full day tsk tsk . I just love eating meat too much & it's quite impossible to tell me to give up completely.

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Sunday, January 29, 2006

Goodbye Year Of The Rooster & let's welcome & usher in the Year Of The Dog ! That's right , it's officially Chinese New Year & I'm gonna make my way down to the temple soon to pray . Before doing that , I have to go to my paternal grandparents's house for breakfast but I'm not eating cos I had some stuff already beforehand heh heh

Oh ya I almost forgot , HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY JENNY =) =) . Wahahaha you're 17 already , I can't believe it LOL & somemore today's the 1st day of cny that's major mojo coolness ! hopefully you will do something faboo later on in the day , I'm sure you will & how often you turn 16 anyway ?

My years or should I say days of being 17 are long ago over & sorry I made a mistake in the age that I wrote in your birthday card . Sala , I thought you were born a year eariler haha so forgive me if you could !

Ooh.. I better go & get ready right now , I have a long & not to mention boring day ahead of me , I need to bring a toy hammer to bounce it on my head to keep me awake lol

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Saturday, January 28, 2006

Chinese New Year's tomorrow , I'm excited about it cos last year's celebrations was quite bad & not to mention moody so hopefully this time it will be better.

If you ask me , I don't really enjoy the 1st day of cny as for starters I'm not really close to my paternal relatives but it's a whole different story on the 2nd day which the fun begins as I feel that I can relate to my maternal relatives better . I don't know why but it has always been like that since young for me ..

I already can predict what will be done tomorrow . Wake up early , go to my paternal grandparents's house for breakfast & then make my way to the temple at Ang Mo Kio to pray & have vegeterian steamboat for lunch *yum.. NOT* & then go back to their house to wait for my other paternal relatives to come . *yawn , someone get me a book to read haha*

Did I mention , I can't swear or do some taboo stuff during cny ? Damn so looks like today I will swear for all I care & I can't do that for the next 3 days . Gulp , gonna try not to do that & be an angel for once . Well I try , but no promises here !

Su-H , if you're reading this , mind taking some time to reply to the email I sent you ? If not then it's ok with me , I'm a total kaipo at heart but I really hope to help you & break free from whatever crap you're going & had gone though & Dila , have fun at Batam later on =) .

I'm such a saddo , I never been to Batam before , maybe I go & visit there later on this year yes?

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Friday, January 27, 2006

I went to the dentist this morning . I know I will sound weird saying this but oh boy am I glad I made an appointment to see 1 .

I wouldn't go into the gross details with regards to my teeth but I'm lucky I decided to go to see 1 after delaying like forever . My teeth hurts a bit from all the cleaning & polishing but it should be ok in the next few days . I better make a bookmark in my diary to see 1 in July which's in 6 months's time . Right got that noted down already !

Besides I don't wanna lose all my teeth by the time I reach 25 or something . Gulp that will be freaky if you ask me !

When the dentist proceeded to clean & polish my teeth , he told me beforehand to raise my hand up should there be any pain . Being tough as nails , I just bear during the 1/2 hour of dental treatment .

I know some people have a fear of the dentist but personally I don't . Just tahan the pain for a while & everything will be over even though I know it's easier said than done .

Next dental appointment for me : 27th July 06 !

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Thursday, January 26, 2006

FINALLY , my dreaded test is OVER with a capital O ! About time you say & yes I'm happy that this burden has been lifted off my shoulders .. for now . Like I said , results etc I will worry about that later on . Now I just wanna RELAX !

How did the test went ? Overall it was not as bad as I thought it will be , except for some questions that I can't be damn to answer , but other than that , it was ok I guess . As long as you give me a pass grade , I'm happy ! I don't want the moon when I already got the little stars at the back of my pocket .

I saw this in JuneyYy's latest entry so I thought hell , why not I do it ?

1) Weird Habit - Erm... *thinks* I don't think I really have any weird habits , unless you count the fact that the 1st thing I notice on guys's their hairstyle , haircolor & I always check them out whether they wear ear studs or not .

2) Weird Obsession - I'm quite obsessed with everything that's hearts related that's why I nicknamed myself 'The Hearts Lover' . Most of my earrings are heart shaped & so does my jewellery cases. I sometimes wonder whether in my past life , was I the godness of love aka Venus ? lol

3) Weird Cravings - I usually have them before my period comes & some of them are quite weird & strange to begin with . There was 1 time I was craving for get this , ox tongue soup . Did I managed to satisfy my cravings for it ? Yes & does the soup taste good despite the weird thing inside it ? Yes

4) Weird Dreams - I sometimes dream that I'm the world's professional cat burgler , going around at night clawing my way up buildings & stealing stuff to feed & give to the poor . In that I'm like the female version of Robin Hood , haha

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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

The past 2 days I been on the net in the morning as I been trying to study for my test that will take place tomorrow .

I realised that my temper's very similar to Raven who's a fellow Teen Titan & that she like myself , have problems controlling her emotions as her powers are due with feelings etc . So time & time again , she has to meditate to prevent herself from getting a outburst or some fit .

The past few days I been so stressed out over for nothing , even my own mum said so . I know I shouldn't sound mean or lazy but I only have like what 1 1/2 months or less before I officially finish my course & that now it's the last semester already .

I have only 2 subjects this semester in which I nailed down 1 & all's left's International Trading . I don't really care what kinda grade I will get for it as long as I pass my course overall .

So I guess I have to control my inner self emotions for starters & not to be so overstressed & depressed for nothing . It's strange that I'm like the only 1 in class so caught up in studies & that especially the guys are like bo chap heck care kinda thing . Weird.

Maybe cos I'm on top of the food chain which even adds unwanted pressure but you know what at the end of the day ? I don't care , I just try to give it 1 more shot later on today & absorb whatever my brain can suck in , material & info wise on tomorrow's test .

Marks & overall grade wise for this subject , I also don't really care , as long as I can enter into poly around April , it's fine with me . I have to stop getting over worried for nothing once & for all .

I know easier said than done . I wanna change that part of me , in addition to stop eating chocolate every single day :O . Both are really bad habits so I wanna curb them ...

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Tuesday, January 24, 2006

I couldn't sleep well the whole of last night as I was still worried about my upcoming test this Thurs but you know what ? After much pondering , I decided to just study study study for it but of course study smart & the right way !

As much as I hate studying , I have to do it whether I like it or not & this time , it's quite a task as like what I said in previous times , my useless ex teacher didn't do a good job teaching my subject so all the more I should put in my best effort to study for it & just get it over & done with !

I have to lose the negative self talk as basically I'm a very negative person & that only in recent years , I learnt to let go emotionally & that to use negative energy or my negative attitute towards life postively .

I mean , the guys in the class with the exception of 4-5 of them , can't be damn & bothered with it . I should as I have a goal which's to enter & apply to poly to futher my studies once I finished my course .

Having said that , I better mark my words & study really hard later on in the afternoon or else I'm dead meat !

I just realised today's the day when the backstreet boys will be staging their 1st ever concert in here for 10 long years since their debut . I know Han Lei & her sister are going (lucky sods hmph) so whoever's going to their gig later on at night , have tons of fun . Well what you expect ? it's BSB after all!

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Monday, January 23, 2006

I went with my maternal relatives to have an early reunion dinner yesterday . I thought we will have a hard time finding the venue but it was easier than I thought .

The food was ok overall , nothing to shout about unfortunately except for the 1st time , I did bothered to eat the Yu Sheng ! Usually every reunion dinner , I would only eat the crispy crackers on it , how cool's that ?

& the bad part came . The 2nd last dish on the reunion dinner set was steamed sticky rice with lots of dried ingredients such as dried prawns , chinese sausage etc . I ate a lot of it thinking anything bad wouldn't come back to me . I was SO wrong !

After eating a few bowls of it , I started to get sick to the gut & that I was bloated like crap . To make things worst , when I reached home , I reached out for 2 small chocolates :S . Needless to say , I had a carbohydrate overdose yesterday night & that getting to sleep was a real chore considering the fact that I was well overdosed !

Now here comes the funny part . I been depressed on & off for the past week or so & then suddenly yesterday night when I was trying to sleep , my mind became calm . Just like that , I couldn't believe it at all ! It's like the carb overdose did something to me which's really strange if you ask me !

Well , Chinese New Year's exactly less than a week away . That's the time I'm really gonna worried & that I hope I wouldn't get fat again . I must control myself for sure & today onwards , I'm gonna be strict on myself again .

I still have a few more kilos to lose & I been swaying off to the wrong side of my diet again & again , it has been getting so frequently & at times I admit I do hate myself so this time , I'm gonna do the job proper & good !

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Sunday, January 22, 2006

Listening to some songs that I downloaded from Howie Day's Stop All The World Now CD . The tracks have been really promising so far . It's a big waste cos I think Howie's a really talented musician & that people should sit up & take notice of him & not just for his song Collide .

I will be doing a lot of things today . Quite surprising considering the fact that usually I'm being bore to death on pratically every Sun . Other than trying to study for my stupid test in which this case I have to rely on myself to study for it cos my worthless ex teacher didn't did a good job teaching the subject & then later on in the afternoon go & feed my babies aka the koi fishes downstairs of my house .

They're gonna have a fat treat later on with the amount of food I'm gonna feed them if you ask me !

& at night , going out to have an early reunion dinner with my maternal relatives . In just a matter of days , Chinese New Year will be approaching sooner than I thought . So everyone's gonna say goodbye to the year of the rooster & hello year of the dog !

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Saturday, January 21, 2006

Don't you hate it when you have a test coming up real soon & that the subject that you're being tested on , your stupid teacher didn't did a good job teaching it or in this case didn't teach for damn ? Well that's what's happening to me now & not to mention to my whole class too !

I don't mean to sound rude but he doesn't deserve to be called a 'teacher' at all . He's a temporary staff & that he has left my school already so I can bitch at him for all I care in here . I wouldn't name who he's but whoever's in the same class as me knows who I'm talking about .

& don't get me started that he tried to be cool but obviously failed big time . I hate guys like that . It's bcos of him that's making me mad for all the wrong reasons & no wonder this time round , my period with addition to this has made me even more moodier than ever .

Hell with him ! Should I didn't do my subject well , I'm gonna blame him big time even though he has left my school & also curse him with infinite bad luck !

Ok rant's over , time to cool down & get some chow!

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Friday, January 20, 2006

What have I been up to today ? I been getting into tons of trouble with the law & police & getting dirty with lots of men . Yeah right * pull myself back to the real world * I'm just playing , that kinda situation will never take place at all . Sorry to spoil the drama I'm just a sweet normal wholesome girl here *cough cough* .

IN YOUR FACE , I'm nothing like that at all , I'm a bad ass girl at heart . I'm serious , if you never meet or know me well in person , just think of me like that *pull a sweet sick fake smile*

I hit the arcade today to kick some serious butt , it's always nice to go back there & just relieve from unwanted stress . Some people smoke or do drugs or whatever to relieve stress . I play fighting games to relieve stress . Only 50 cents per token , I got nothing to lose isn't it ?

I saw Franz Ferdinand's The Fallen video yesterday on Pop Inc , it's damn cool if you ask me ! There's just something about them & their very unique & interesting music videos . Personally I like their music a lot , something that I can dance to even though I can't dance to save myself . I dance like a corpse lol

Outta the videos they made so far , my fave's still (Dark Of The) Matinee . If you haven't seen it , you should & did I mention they're making their way down to S'pore very very soon ? I would love to go to see them in concert if not the fact that nobody wants to go & accompany me at all :(

& oh happy birthday Marika & to my mum's youngest brother too , many happy returns to the both of you :)

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Thursday, January 19, 2006

I did my NAPFA test this morning . Which means there were no lessons just for today , cool.

I could have just step away & don't do any of the 6 stations at all but I had to whether I like it or not . I feel that in a way it's better for me to do it than not coming to school & don't do it at all & that I might seem like a coward .

I don't care about the numbers on the results that I did from sit up's , sit & reach,standing board jump,shuttle run,chin up's . I'm just glad that I got this over & done with which to me is a frickin BIG sigh of relief!

But if there's 1 thing I'm proud of today after completing the NAPFA , it's the 2.4 KM run that I did after I finished all 5 stations .

Honestly I can't be damn to run at all , the only time I ever do that is when I run for the bus or across the road so doing the 2.4 KM run was quite a challenge since I'm not the sporty type.

So ok I did the run , I was running & power walking like nobody's business . Surprisely , at the start , it was like a breeze . While running & power walking , I was also listening to my mp3player which was playing Gavin DeGraw's songs .

Usually I would just wanna die & pant like crap that sorta thing after running a bit but this time , no that never happened at all ! I was stunned nonetheless & still keep going on & oh did I mention , about 4-5 classes from the Business IT Year 2 cohort including my class did the NAPFA test today ? The reminding ones will do it tomorrow.

Then while running towards where my PE teacher was , I took an ice cream stick from him & ran/walked back . Now that's the challenging part cos pratically around this time , my energy was almost drained but I kept on going .

I was running/walking like a mad dog around this time . I did both so fast to the extent that just a blink of an eye , the finishing line was there . Happily , I spinted til I can't take it anymore . I finished 59th outta I don't know how many students but 1 of the PE teachers said I passed so YAY

What's the timing that I obtained ? I have no clue & I don't wish to find out but after doing the run/walk , I was really happy in that the past 6 months , all that dieting & exercising & weight loss does pay off & that will not let me slack big time .

& oh did I mention , I finished 1st in my class for the girls ? woo hoo such a honour isn't it ? It's so damn cool man ! & normally I would be all sore like crap after doing the NAPFA tests that I did over the years but that didn't happened at all ! Yeah I know I'm hao-lianing in here but who doesn't like to praise him/herself ? ha

Well except for a bit of sore muscles on my legs , I'm feeling ok . No backpain somemore :)

After I completed everything , would you believe I still bothered to walk to the Clementi Bus/MRT interchange to take a bus there to Cold Storage despite my aching muscles & the damn hot weather ?

& what I bought in there to treat myself ? A small bag of sugar free almond cookies haha ! & they're FABOO ,they reminded me of Marks & Spencer's version . They also had chocolate walnuts which I tried yesterday but it's on the soft & chewy side which I don't like at all but the almond cookies were great , all crunchy & delicious .

That's to reward myself after completing the dreaded NAPFA test :)

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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Mr Bernard fowarded an email to me , Wan Zhen & Su-H (in her old email addy but I forwarded it to her new one just now ) . I don't know whether to laugh or cry on what he wrote in the email at all ! Get outta town I say!

The 3 of us been nominated & picked by him to attend an Act Graciously workshop & its purpose of workshop: Personal development programme for outstanding students. This programme will help students to better reflect on themselves in order to engage and integrate into society positively. The programme will be a mix of reflective and interactive discussions, games and role plays to establish application and recall at its best.

& he said in the email too that the 3 of us are 'diligent and smart ladies'. Yeah right since when I'm like that haha but it's flattering & definitely is an honour that he picked me. I mean there're others I feel that they deserve to go but since I'm choosen , what can I say ?

As much as I hate attending workshops & somemore it's on 3rd & 10th Feb , 1-4pm & both days are Fri's , I guess I can afford to pass some time on both days heh & besides that he also attached the intake I'm currently now in with every details on the students , from their overall GPA results & etc.

Where am I standing ? I'm not willing to say though but let's just say that my position's pretty comfortable to sit in ...

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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Freaky much , now the problem relating to the text format buttons on IE has been solved on my computer . I don't know why or how but ya it seems to be OK as for now , hopefully it stays that way .

I blog eariler that my period came yesterday night & today's already been hellious for me even though it's only day 2 . I felt really weak , still am right now & I think I'm losing blood faster than you can say ' I told you so' . Well I do hope that this can be over & done with soon as no woman likes getting periods , monthly somemore !

Don't worry I'm sure I will be fine , I'm still alive & kicking I might add ! Did I mention I watched a buncha shows eariler on TV before I went to school ? I watched Martin Mystery , Tom & Jerry Kids ( damn haven't watch that for AGES) & a bit of The Road Runner show . They really cheered me up & made my life so much for the better!

If I don't have school today , I could have watched Designer Guys too on Ch5 as I really like it . It's a pity that they show it at 11.30am though , d'oh

Now I understand why the past few days I been feeling so depressed & small for nothing !! Cos my period finally came yesterday night when I was watching TV . About time I say but I must admit that being an 'experience depression-er' ever since I hit puberty , I always get this sorta thing from time to time .

The past week I been depressed for over nothing ,must be the fact that it was combined with PMS somemore & no I never see a shrink at all cos they're too expensive for me to afford so I usually work things out on my own.

So today , I got up at 6.45am , I forgot to wear my PJ's pants & I was FREEZING to death iterally the whole night as it was SO cold :S . Next time I better make sure I wear them no matter what !

Then I did some tidying around the house & even bother to make my own bed . I wanna do it cos I don't want to be forever a lazy cow & depend on my dad to do it on my behalf . Yeah I know I'm really bad so it's about time I should do such things as a grown up.

I'm not really sure what am I planning to do later on in the day . For sure I will go gymming before I go to school . But after that ? I have no idea at all , maybe do some reading here & there & yes folks I'm better now phew

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Monday, January 16, 2006

I forgot to mention that I been having sore eyes for the past few days already. Gulp , time to keep my paws or rather my hands off my eyes for the upcoming days then . Trust me , sore eyes are so not funny , I have to wear my sun shades even when I'm inside shopping malls man !

I seldom watch TV . Even if I do , it's usually the other 2 that will hog the TV like forever but this time woo I'm in !! What I usually watch on a typical week goes like this :

In the morning ,should I have the time or if I don't have school -- > 10-10.30am , Martin Mystery on DisneyChannelAsia . They keep on playing the encore episodes til I can't take it sometimes . I want them to show the brand new season soon...............

In the afternoon , 6.30-7pm,The Batman on CartoonNetwork.Was a bit skeptical when I heard they were producing a total new cartoon show regarding to Batman but was surprised at how good it's even though I must admit it can never reach the level similar to Batman:The Animated Series which in my opinion , is an absolute classic & 1 of the best cartoon shows I ever watched.

At night , 10-11pm,Vigilante Force on Channel U . It's a Hong Kong police drama show & I only started watching this a few days ago . It's damn good & there's just something great & fanastic about Hong Kong drama shows if you ask me , especially if it's police related !!

These're the 3 shows that I typically watch on weekdays . In addition to these 3 , I will also be watching Get Real on ChannelNewsAsia later on tonight at 8.30-9pm & a bit of mtv here & there

With these kinda programmes , there's enough excuse for me to sit on the couch & be a total couch potato!

I didn't blog yesterday as I was so lazy . Yeah I know lazy's my middle name like you ever guess . I was having some problems within my computer using blogger due to the text format buttons so now in my computer whenever I blog , I will be using Mozilla Firefox . I don't know why the other computer doesn't have this problem with regards to IE . Oh well ...

Anyway , yesterday was pretty hectic.I went to the temple with my mum & Hui Lin . My dad drove us there . It was terrible , the location where the temple was located it was PACKED like crazy . We can't even find a parking lot for damn sake so eventually my dad gave up & let us go down .

Everytime I make my way there , it's forever crowded . Yesterday was no exception & it was worst than ever cos Chinese New Year's coming & you can imagine when the festival's drawing closer , the crowd's more worst so I should stop complaining !!

I went in there to pray for a lot of things , among the issues regarding my health , studies etc.

Before that , I had lunch at a nearby food court . I ordered chicken rice or else I wouldn't have anything to eat at all . The chicken was good but strangely enough , the rice doesn't seem to taste good to me anymore . Must be change of tastebuds for my case . Hmm...

& oh did I mention , I had SO much fried crispy pork lard bits too , it's so bloody sinful but good . Heh , I was eating them like chips . The noodle stall that Hui Lin & my mum went , they serve it in tiny soy sauce plates . I keep on going there to take them on & on til I can't take it anymore wahahaha

So after the visit to the temple , we made our way to the nearby OG cos my mum wanted me to buy somemore new clothes for me to wear. I don't want her to do that but she insisted as she said that my warerobe's pratically empty so I had no choice.

You wouldn't believe this but the 1st thing that she bought for me was a strapless bra *hoot into laughter* . Yeah I know , pretty amusing right? There was a 'buy 3 get 1 free' offer so why not ? Hui Lin got 1 strapless bra now too so that's pretty funny .

For that strapless bra , I have the option to remove the bra straps or not . Not bad eh? *jokes* revealing skin baring outfits here I come haha

Later on , was walking around the clothes department , eventually bought 2 more new tops . I like them a lot , especially 1 particular which has floral patterns on it . Awww... :) really cool !!

I'm hoping that I can drop to a M eventually as I'm wearing XL for tops now . I used to wear something like 4-5 XL which was pretty scary . I think my waistline's now 33 inches woo hoo . Just 3 more inches to shave off to get to my ideal waistline , I so can't wait for that to happen!!

*whisper* I think my old waistline used to be 40 inches . Gulp. I wanted to wear the new ones that my mum bought for me but she said that I have to wait a while . Looks like I'm stuck to wearing my old ones for now that's !

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Saturday, January 14, 2006

I was feeling crabby eariler as probably due to the fact that I was hungry . So I guess if I'm feeling angry , means I have to eat lol

But honestly before I went out to buy my lunch & dinner , my mum was talking to me about what's going on in the family , especially on my paternal side . If you ask me , I definitely prefer my mum's relatives as they tend to settle things & bond together like grown up's .

I don't mean to be rude but from what my mum said about my dad's relatives , they're kinda childish in that they don't settle things without even trying to & that whatever mess they made , they sweep it over the carpet just like that . That's so wrong in all levels if you ask me.

If there's 1 thing my mum taught me today ,it's that communication between 2 parties or more is very important . Like the other day , she chided me for not telling my dad where I was going & that the next time I wanna go out , I should write a note on the table to say where I am heading to & unlike you rich folks out there , I don't have a handphone.

I know sometimes I'm really lazy but what she said totally make a hell lotta sense so on that , I'm not gonna rebel.

& this year , I'm also hoping that I can manage my $ better . I used to spend $ like crazy , buying lots of nonsense & eventually not using them at all . My policy's that whenever I collect $ during Chinese New Year , I will deposit 3/4 of it into my bank account cos I don't like the feeling of putting too much $ in my piggy bank inside my drawer where I might as well put the $ to good use & not to mention safety inside the bank.

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Friday, January 13, 2006

I didn't realise at all today's Fri The 13th til Jen told me :O To think I went out eariler gulp

haha luckily nothing serious happened to me even though I must admit I don't really believe in such things .I mean i do read such paranormal issues from time to time but I just take them with a pinch of salt.

Next Thurs , it's my NAPFA test . Gulp , I'm worried cos I don't know whether can I handle it a not . The only thing I can remember was that I always get an A for sit ups haha but looks like the next few days prior to it , it's back to the Danger Room aka gym to work my arse out.

I overheard Nurul yesterday in the lab saying that she doesn't wanna do it . Well she SHOULD . Sure I don't like doing such things as I'm pratically the laziest moo on earth but I really think that this year she should do something about her health . Cos I'm in no position to 'lecture' about her but hey she should know better.

Like for starters , I hate running & the only times I would ever run is across the roads to the bus stop or I run when my bus's about to leave .

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Thursday, January 12, 2006

I bought this eariler when I went to Borders after school finished for me. Take a look :

Yeah I know I'm a big fan of Catwoman so I thought why not I bought this at Borders ? It cost me S$35.95 but it's worth spending that amount in my opinion instead of buying something useless .
I wanted to buy this other book which Borders is also selling but unfortunately I didn't have enough $ with me so that will have to wait til Sat . Catwoman: Nine Lives Of A Feline Fatale
Hopefully that book will still be on the shelves as only 1 book's left on the rack & so does the book that I bought eariler . Catwoman:Nine Lives Of A Feline Fatale will set me for S$29.95 but who cares man , I'm reading the book & not you lol

Woooooooooooo ........... today's the last day of school for this week which means ... NO SCHOOL tomorrow *dances around* . All the right reasons to love Fri's even more woooo

I already can foresee a very BORING day ahead . Just 2 hours of lessons (well hopefully this time *roll eyes*) & then bang go back home . I wanna go to Orchard after school as I'm damn bored up at home , even though I went to the arcade yesterday but still .. I wanna do some walking around & maybe buy some new blings blings at Perlini should they have some nice designs :)

Should be fun & yesterday when I was gymming in the morning before heading to school , it poured :O . I was scared cos I didn't brought an umbrella with me along . Thankfully it cleared up soon after but for safety reasons , I better bring 1 later on when I go gymming.

& oh yes before I forget , I did tried the EQUAL no sugar added chocolates which currently are selling in normal or hazelnut flavors . I tried both already (not on the same day) & they taste really GOOD ! Just like normal chocolates but even better!

I'm gonna switch to buying them to treat myself every weekend as I'm a total chocolate freak . Can you imagine I used to eat chocolate every single day ? :O that's why I got so fat in the 1st place lol so now I cut down to just have them during the weekends or else I will feel damn deprived!

I will stop buying the Atkins bars & I emailed Cold Storage & they replied me saying that they will discontinue selling Atkins products soon as the fact the company filed for bankrupty unfortunately last Aug . Somemore they're too pricey for me to afford & honestly I don't really like the taste of the bars .

I checked that the bars will expire in April so I suspect once the month of April is around the corner , Cold Storage will stop selling them for good .

Oh well ... I rather much pay S$1.75 per bar for the EQUAL chocolates which uses sugar alcohol instead of normal sugar (for all low carb chocolate bars they use it too) which're more tastier & definitely more cheaper for me to buy!

Instead of paying for a rather tasteless Atkins bar for S$5.95/S$6.25 per bar !!

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Wednesday, January 11, 2006

My dad's eldest brother said something to me when everyone had steamboat dinner yesterday in which stuck a chord in me . He just briefly said that I must have a lot of sheer iron willpower & discipline to get to where I'm now currently , with regards to my progressive weight loss .

It might seem like a small thing to you but it means a lot to me . The fact that he mistaken me as Hui Li when I sat down at the table was enough to make me go WOW you know haha

I'm proud to say that now food doesn't control me & that I'm full control in watching what I eat in my new healthy diet . It can be hard at times & temptations are always all around me but the past 6 months ++ it has been good & fanastic for me

Cos of the fact that I have a large frame & that I'm 1.75m (5ft 9inches) tall , I found out that my ideal weight's supposedly to be around 65-74kg (145-164 pounds) . I'm not really sure where I'm now as I threw away my faulty weighing scale but hopefully I can reach 65kg.The lowest I will go down's 63kg (140 pounds) .

Any lower I would look gross I tell you . The last time I weigh myself which was a month ago , I was around 76kg (168 pounds) . I'm sure that number's lower right now but I don't really bother about it cos I don't want the scale to dictate a number that I don't wish to see .

Somemore doesn't mean how much you weigh means how good/bad you look innit?

Now whatever junk or foods that're off limit to me , I have them in moderation even though I must admit some of the my old fave foods I would never ever eat them again as I lost interest in having them already .

I really can't wait to hit the month of July as that month will be my 1st anniversary since I decided to change my eating habits to get healthy & that I don't wanna be fat & miserable in the 2nd decade of my life .

Currently my dress size is ::

Top : UK 14 / US 10
Bottom: UK 16/ US 12

I'm shooting hopefully for a UK 10/ US 6 & UK 12 / US 8 if possible & would you believe it , my biggest dress size was a staggering UK 22 / US 18 ? Gulp

& oh Claire , if you need any help with regards to low carb or to your diet , just feel free to PM me anytime :)

If there's 1 thing I wanted to blog yesterday but I forgotten all about it totally , it's my hair!

I wanted to cut it actually as it's getting so long & driving me mad in a way but I just realised that the hairdresser that I been going to since when I was a baby , has up her prices as Chinese New Year's around the corner .

I know cos my mum went to perm her hair & that's why the hairdresser charged her more . Geez...so fast already , like that . It's as good as those florists charging crazy amounts of $ just for a single stalk of rose during Valentine's Day innit?

I already can foresee a rather boring day today if you ask me . I only got back to school for today & tomorrow only for 2 hours & honestly it's a waste of crap time . Then again what to do , have to do something to pass the boredom & my mum was wondering why my timetable's so slack this semester .

Well DUH cos I'm finishing my course in less than 2 months that's why . Did you see my 1st semester's timetable? It was BAD . Does a 9-5 time duration every single day except for Fri is enough to scare you ?

I bet it does.

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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Now that the day's drawing close to an end , let me say that I had a really good time today !! At least today's celebration's so much better than last year .

For starters , today's actually a public holiday aka Hari Raya Haji . Damn cool right ? 1st time my birthday falls on a public holiday if you ask me !!

I ate a LOT today . I whacked some ice cream , chocolate & not to forget my birthday cake which was a fruit sponge cake.Yeah I know they're hideously fattening but hey today's my birthday so give me some leeway & space just for today lah haha

Then again whatever junk's out there , I will eat them in moderation , not like I will have them every single day innit?

Initally I was pulling a face when my mum ordered the fruit sponge cake but after having it , was not bad lah but a bit too sweet for my liking . We brought the cake to my paternal grandparents's house , had it after steamboat dinner .

Was a bit embarassing when everyone started singing the Happy Birthday song to me in English & Chinese haha , I mean I'm 19 leh still sing song ? Come on lah . Baosui even asked me to take out 1 of the candles after I blew all of them using my mouth . Ermmmm... nice -.-

Pressies I received ? Not much really aside from lots of $$ hee hee & some VCDs & of course the pressies that Suzy & Jen sent me before that . I haven't really count how much I got today , should be a lot for sure , that's going to my 'piggy bank trust fund ' lol

Overall what a day I had , bring on next year when I turn 20 wooooooo

1st of all , I wanna say that I'm feeling so much better now . Had a really good sleep so I'm feeling fine & dainty now . But for safety reasons , I better monitor my health in the next few days to come.

2ndly , HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & of course JuneyYY too :) It's so cool to share a birthday with a friend if you ask me ! Woah I can't believe it , I'm officially 19 & so's she , wow oh wow .

Which means I need 2 more years to enter into Crazy Horse & into the Genting casino's legally *jokes* instead of sneaking into there illegally 5 times & was busted 3 times by the guards there haha . Can't wait for 2 more years to fly by so that I can do all these things legally & not to mention watch R-21 movies too *jokes*

Things I have in mind to do today? Does the words pigging out mean anything ?lol yes I'm going to eat like crazy later on . Going to Jack's Place for lunch & then will head to my paternal grandparents's house to eat a storm for dinner . Oh yeah can't wait for both events to happen :)

Now the fact that I'm officially older , means that I have to start living/talking/walking like a 19 year old then :P but I'm always a kid at heart no doubt about it hee

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Monday, January 09, 2006

Everything was going according to plan this morning but alas in the afternoon , a bad case of events happened . What you say ? Let me give you a recap.

Yes I did fed the koi's downstairs of my house . Yes I did went to the gym . Yes I did went to Westmall to kick butt at the arcade but after that , things started to went all so wrong !

As I was making my way to the MRT station around 2.15pm , I was suddenly bogged down with terrible stomach cramps . You think this's normal but NOOOO it's NOT !! It was so bad to the extent that I had to sit down at those benches thingy & the pain around this time was totally unbearable!

I thought I was able to stand up but NOOOOOO I can't , I think that I must have sat down & my energy was zapped totally for a good 'ol 1 1/2 hours !!! . I can't even move & my legs started to go numb . I thought what the hell was going on man ! The only thing that was able to numb my pain was the music blaring outta my mp3player.

I want to cry out loud cos the pain was getting terrible min by min but I can't do that . No tears to cry out :(

A lady that was sitting beside me was really kind , asked me what happened to me as my face was really pale like Casper!

Didn't help matters that it was raining heavily too . After 1 1/2 hours later , when I finally managed to get the strength to stand up , I went to the public phone & call my friend up . No such luck as he didn't picked up the phone so I made my way home limping like crap..

It's very strange that outta the blue this sorta thing happened to me . Bloody hell & no I'm still feeling like shit & damn weak . So much for the day being flew away just like that .Shoot

I'll be fine folks , I think I need to get some serious rest after this , wonder what's going on ,maybe I better monitor my progress the next few days to come & that it wouldn't spoilt tomorrow's outing.

As for meeting my friend , I can always meet him anytime , just don't understand why something like this can happen to me at the 11th hour :(

Don't know man , something's wrong with my digestive system/juices in my stomach or maybe I ate something that was gone bad or whatever . Oh whatever , off to get some rest now lol

I want to sleep even longer today but I can't do that ! Why ? I was woken up by the big head's LOUD voice at 7.45am ! Damnit & her zoadic sign's not Rooster for nothing . Sheesh..

Oh well now that I'm awake now , the last day & moments before me & JuneYyy gonna turn 19 tomorrow :O . I'm gonna enjoy every last moment of being 18 today!!! by doing a whole buncha things later on . Luckily I don't need to go back to school so it's pure bliss :)

After watching Martin Mystery , I'm gonna feed the numerous koi's downstairs of my house , hit the gym , go hit the ARCADE before going to see my friend after that at his workplace.

I bought a new type of chocolate yesterday , it's EQUAL chocolate where they state 'no sugar added' . It comes in either the normal plain one or with hazelnuts ! Yum , I haven't tried them but they're reasonably priced at S$1.75 ! If they taste really good , then I consider switching to buying them as the Atkins Advantage Bars are very expensive .

If you're a living 'saint' , would you pay S$5.95/S$6.25 per bar ? I don't think so right?Somemore I wanna manage my $ better so it does seem logical to shell out S$1.75 for a no sugar added chocolate!

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Sunday, January 08, 2006

The whole family went out eariler for dinner at a restaurant that we never went before . Was placing high hopes that the food & everything will be ok but was left pretty disappointed at the end.

They served Teochew food but I'm not a big fan of it . I prefer Cantonese anytime but the moment I stepped into the place , geez... everything all started to go wrong . I rather much go another place than here though but the merit's that the food/place's not the worst & not the best I've been lah...

So after that , I was begging my mum to let me go Cold Storage to buy some stuff so that I can toss them into the oven to toast . Eventually everyone went down cos the 5 of us had in mind to get something . Gonna eat some stuff later , having a bad feeling that my period's coming soon as I have been eating more than usual .

& oh yes Jen , tomorrow , finally gonna see him so really excited about it :)

If there's 1 type of music genre that I consider it to be my '1st love' , it would have to be classical music.

I know what you're thinking , YOU a classical music lover ??? Yeah what's so shocking & surprising about it ?

I was brought up with classical music since a little girl & I remembered all those Yamaha lessons that my mum paid for me to go . It was kinda fun initally but gradually as I became older , I started to dread going for it but I had no choice as my mum already paid the full lum sum of the course.& don't get me started on that stupid piano teacher that always come to lecture the hell outta me every week !

It didn't help matters while growing up , my childhood was plauged down with quite a lot of problems that I don't wish to remember & talk about anymore . So sick & tired of classical music & not to mention lessons , I slowly wean off it & started listening to pop music when I was 12 at the then Perfect 10 98.7FM .

This went on til I incorporated classical music back . But this time , it's mainstream classical which in my opinion , rules & more punchy & edgy than the normal classical music .

Honestly if you're not a classical music lover , I suggest don't ever bother to listen as some music pieces are really lengthy/boring & I have to admit , can put me to sleep in a bad way . So I suggest why not listen to mainstream ones ?

My fave mainstream classical acts ? Well I love Bond & have been listening to them ever since they started their career I think 5-6 years ago . I bought their very 1st album Born & rip the songs from their subsquent albums from my friend whom I was surprised that she listens to it as I was too broke to afford their follow up's .

Only recently I started to like Maksim in which I have to say he's damn talented & good . I saw the music videos of him such as The Flight Of The Bubble Bee , Exodus & it's really scary at the way he uses his fingers to play the piano . He has a unique style which I really like !

Both acts are totally eye candy material so who says classical music is played by old hill billy's ?

Now whenever I feel bored with the current music genres that're heating up the airwaves , I switch to listening to Bond & Maksim . Their music are really good . Most of them are upbeat but a couple of them fall into the sappy slow category which I don't mind . Once in a while to listen to such mainstream classical , is good for me & not to mention for my ears!

I just scanned into the computer a pic that was taken last week at my maternal grandma's house , does anyone wanna see it ? If you do , you know what to do just drop me a line at my tagboard :)

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Saturday, January 07, 2006

Went to Jurong Point eariler in mind to buy some clothes so that I can wear for the upcoming Chinese New Year .

Eventually I only bought 1 baby pink top with a rather big unique design in the centre of the top which's surrounded by strings . Damn I'm not good at explaining things so you can just leave it to your imagination !

I must admit I was a bit sore that I still can't fit into normal size clothes as I have a frickin large frame & that my dress size's now XL or XXL depending on the cut . But I learn to look at it this way positively.

How you ask ? Well 6 months ago I wouldn't even dream of wearing XL/XXL clothes at all . I think I must have been 4 or 5 XL that time :O ! Yeah I know scary isn't it ? & somemore my weight loss journey has not ended yet , it's still ongoing so it might take a few more months before I reach my goal weight .

Somemore Chinese New Year's only 4 days long this year so you can't expect me to buy a whole new warerobe right ? & I have only replaced 2 pieces of clothing in my warerobe , that top & a demin skirt that my aunt got for me last week ..

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Friday, January 06, 2006

I went back to school today to take my class photo . I could have don't go for it but I went for it eventually .

Outta 33 people in my class , only 12 people showed up . How lame isn't it ? So in a way to 'balance' out the number of students vs teachers , some of us called our previous teachers who taught us previously to come & join in the fun !

I don't know why but I never have the habit of putting slap on my face or comb my hair in toilets etc during anytime of the day or just before a photoshoot . I'm still vain in some parts of my life but definitely not this . The only thing I did before that materialised was to check whether my hair's ok a not that's all

The weekend's finally here & it's really exciting , only a few more days before me & June turn 19 on the same day respectively ! how cool isn't it ? I was shocked when I found out her birthday's the same as mine a few years ago .

My mum asked me this morning where I wanna go & eat on my birthday . I haven't really think about it yet but I'm hoping if possible to go back to Grand Corpthrone Hotel there to have a feast as I'm the sort who can spend hours in a buffet . Last time the whole family went there , man !! the food was awesome ! Seafood , meat & etc

Pressies that I want ? I don't expect a lot even though I don't mind $ from my relatives & parents hahahaha but a gift or 2 will be great . I already received 1 from Suzy last week which she sent me together with my advanced Xmas pressie.

What she got for me ? A small Dolce & Gabbana light blue perfume ! I have used it already & it smells really good on me hee

& guess what ? I received a surprising parcel from Jen eariler in the afternoon . I was shell shocked when I opened up the pressie that she wrapped up so nicely for me. She sent me a stack of CDs by Maksim !!!!! Woah I was so escatic cos I'm a big fan of his music (he's a pianist & his music's a mean mix of mainstream classical) .

She sent me all 3 of his CDs that he released so far , including his latest A New World . I haven't listen to all of the songs yet but I like what I have heard so far from his 1st CD . Thanks a big bunch Jen , I really really appericate the effort & not to mention $ you spent on me , I'm so touched :) :) :)

& Maksim's like a hippier Richard Clayderman in my opinion & he's a real hottie too :P

See what I mean ? haha
To check up on this extremely talented Croatian pianist , log on to Maksim

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Thursday, January 05, 2006

Random fact of the day ::

"Ryan Cabrera's current girlfriend's Lisa who's 1/2 of The Veronicas . She made an appearance in Ryan's current latest music video 'Photo' "

*sulk in 1 corner* I SO envy her if you ask me , she get to make out with him in the video. HMPH with a capital H -.-

Hey don't you wonder on something ? Ryan got his ex Ashlee to appear on his very 1st video 'On The Way Down' & now it's Lisa ?

Hmm... something's fishy going round here ...

Video & song wise ? I LOVE it !!!!!!!!! I honestly think that this's currently the best song & video that Ryan has released & made so far . Shine On comes in a close second & honestly speaking , the videos he made for his 1st album they all suck but the songs does not haha

I have seen both Photo & Shine On on his official website & I love both songs & videos respectively but Photo takes the cake !

YAY finally the 3 of us have finished doing the presentation eariler . Which means officially we have completed our subject , woo hoo *dances around* We 3 rule haha

Funny thing was , I was having last min jitters before presenting my part as there were so many things to talk about in the presentation . Still , I managed to breeze though it . Was caught off guard by some of the questions Mr Bernard asked though . Zhen's lucky , she got the least questions being asked by him . Hmph so unfair man , how about me ? lol just joking lah

Well by right I would have finished school for this week today but nope , no such luck . Tomorrow I still have to go back but only for a while to do take pics aka class photo . I could have chosen the option not to go but I better do it whether I like it or not . I mean it's just like today's presentation , get it over & done with .

Somehow or other , I feel that I might be standing at the last row on benches as I'm tall or if I'm lucky , maybe sit on the 1st row or stand in the 2nd row . Hmmm.. I don't know really

& I just saw this in the papers . Fort Minor are making their way down here for a 1 night only gig !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG I was like !!!!!!!!!!! when I saw it . Anyway their gig details's that they're coming on 1st March which's a Wed . Venue's S'pore Indoor Stadium & it will start at 8pm . Prices of tickets are S$68,S$58 & S$38. Bloody hell , I so wanna go if you ask me!!

I have been a big fan of Linkin Park's music since they started so when I heard Mike going solo to return back to his hip hop roots , I was no doubt skeptical as he had so much success with LP & selling 35 million CDs with them's no big joke so when The Rising Tied dropped on 22nd Nov '05 , I was pleasantly surprised by the material!

He played all the instruments on all the tracks on the CD & it's being produced by Jay Z . On the CD sleeve , they print his real name which's Shawn Carter . So you can't go wrong with Jay Z producing it & Mike's on the driver's seat on the disc .

The songs on it are fanastic , I'm sure you would have heard & seen the very catchy Believe Me on mtv or on radio . Their 2nd single's Petrified & believe me ( pardon the pun) , it's more edgier & better . I saw the video on Yahoo music already & it's good . 1 note while watching it : never ever play with fire haha

On another happy note , I called my friend in school using Zhen's handphone . Was kinda weird talking to him as I haven't seen him in a while since Nov , the week after my Japan trip . I'm gonna see him next Mon so I'm really looking forward to catch up with him on a hell lotta things , that should be fun & for sure something for me to look forward to next week :)

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Wednesday, January 04, 2006

If there's 1 thing that been bugging me down the past few days , it's issues due to my weight again . I was pondering on what was dragging me down when I was gymming this morning . Turns out it's this , again !

It's quite weird that this issue dragged me down again but after working out in the morning while listening to McFly's Wonderland album (thanks to Han Lei for sending me their songs ! ) , I felt a hell lot better

I realised that I was too impatient in wanting to reach my goal weight fast . It has been 6 months since I changed my eating habits & incorporated exercise to my life , that's no mean feat I tell you !

While looking though my warerobe , there's a Joan Allen maroon blouse inside that my mum bought for me a few years ago . What was the size on the label ? US 18/ UK 22 !! I was shocked , no doubt about it . The last time I wore that was to Ah Gek's wedding dinner . To think that size was the biggest when I was at my heaviest :S

My current dress size ? I'm glad to say that I'm now a US 12/ UK 16 ! I think I must have dropped 3-4 dress sizes since July , that's way damn cool ! I'm still hoping that I can drop a few more sizes , & that I can reach either US 8/10 or UK 12/14 if possible . Any lesser I would gross so see how it goes ...

I also don't know what's my current weight now as I have thrown away the weighing scale when the rest were at Genting . Ha , it was spoilt already in the 1st place so I had to get rid of that sooner or later .

But as long as I look good in pics , it's fine...

Wan Zhen sent me the EBP presentation yesterday via MSN . I saw it & really like & appericate the effort that she & Su-H took to do during the holidays :)

Was browsing though the whole thing at night & then when I reach slide 28 , I saw something that made me laughed ! Ok , not laughed but cheered me up a lot . Both of them know what it's so heh

It seems like a small thing/pic but means a lot to me as the past few days I been feeling really blah , due to PMS but I will be fine . I gotten over this a lot of things already so it shouldn't be all too bad for me . Like Jen said , blast some music whenever I'm feeling blah

Has anyone seen that 1 min ad on Ch 5 titled 'Good To Be Home' ? It has been getting airplay constantly on Ch 5 so you wouldn't miss it , unless you don't watch that channel at all ! It's an original xmas song & I like the melody to it but it's oh so short , I can't catch the lyrics of what Dave sang , d'oh :S

But I did saw glances of Dan on the ad . Um.. he looks good but I wonder why his hair like that haha . See that's exactly the 1st thing I ever said to him when I 1st met him . Adio , history repeating itself in a way..

I haven't seen him for a while already as the both of us been so frickin busy like crap . I want to go see him again but I'm so LAZY , I can't even move at all !! Jen , please help me do something about my laziness -.-

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Tuesday, January 03, 2006

If there's anything I like to blog about , it's randomn things that I like to talk about .

When I went back to my paternal grandparents's house for dinner on Sun , 1/2 way thoughout my other relatives preparing dinner , they suddenly realised that they don't have any gas in the kitchen to cook their food . Instead they had to use electricity to finish cooking whatever they prepared.

& guess what ? my house's gas stove's button has been spoilt so you jolly well imagine , I had to use a matchstick to light up the gas as I wanted to soft boiled eggs for breakfast . I was so scared that the gas would just shoot up like that .Luckily nothing bad happened !

The relief teacher in my subject will be leaving the school soon as he's a part timer . No offense to him but I think he suck in the way that he handle & 'teach' the class . I open inverted comma the word ' teach' as he himself doesn't have any teaching experience to begin with ! Hopefully the person that will be replacing him will do a better job or else I can blame on the both of them big time for failing the subject miserably.

This Fri there's a class photo taking session that I have to attend in school . I'm so dreading it ! Why ? I look absoultely crabby in pics & so hoping that I could put a paper bag on top of my head/face ! I mean have you seen me in person ? I look really UGLY with a capital U & I think people would just maybe stick me in a small enclosed room so that they wouldn't need to see this ugly witch face in person haha

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Monday, January 02, 2006

I'm so seriously pissed off with everything now . Forgive me 1st hand if I'm gonna sound offensive later on

I'm so sick of people treating me like a kid ! I'm gonna be 19 soon for peep sake ! Just cos the few past days my parents been away , my 'well minded ' relatives keep on calling the house like 1 kind . Stupid shit & what do they tell me over the phone ? 'you're a girl & it's not safe for you to go out ' .

Excuse me , then why are there countless of girls going out doing their shopping etc ? Maybe I should consider undergoing a sex change operation so that all the complaints about this stupid issue will put to rest .

I'm so sick of people passing cutty & stupid remarks. From the smallest to the biggest of things . I know that I'm still overweight but I don't need to hear that coming from people's mouth !

I been working my ass off the past 6 months & counting & I'm going to put myself in another intensive boot camp tomorrow & embark on an even more stricter eating/exercise program . I'm going to push myself even harder than ever to reach my goal weight.

So in short , I'm seriously pissed out today & I blamed that on PMS & other issues . Blah

Blah , school's starting tomorrow . So not lovely & I'm dreading to stay there til 6pm !!!!! Sigh what to do ? This's what you get when you been holidaying for only 1 week ++ & come back to this ? Drats

Well at least I made the most outta the short break . Been gymming regularly with the exception of yesterday as I wanna set a rest day & I so can't work out everyday or else I will drop dead on the spot *touch wood* & also what else , hit the arcade more often ha

After I feed the fishes & do my gymming , I'm going to do some shopping for clothes with my aunt before she go back to Korea on Wed ! Well I probably just buy a few basic ones to last me for a while & not to mention my warerobe's looking so yuck , like a goldfish in a pathetic small little fishbowl.

All my old clothes are all falling off me & the pants that my mum gave back to me to wear , it's getting really short , I can't even cover my legs fully :S . Well I see what the stores have . I think it beats getting a stupid fake LV bag & that getting some new clothes is more worthwhile than that damn bag.

I'm itching to wear a skirt or a dress as I haven't wore either for AGES & somemore Chinese New Year's around the corner so hey what's missing now's a pair of heels :p

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Sunday, January 01, 2006

As I looked back 2005 , it was 1 hell of you can say joyride in some ways or another . Let's walk though the timeline with yours truly in here , using my own words ::

Relatively speaking , I didn't had a good start to the year at any bit . I lost my family doctor a few days before my 18th birthday & as a result , I had the lousiest time ever . So much for a happy occasion , that really & seriously dampen everyone's mood , I was not spared either unfortunately . Not to mention , I was dealt with another of my dad's 2nd older sis's sudden death that happened a few months . Talk about hitting a flat note & I hit that , twice in a row !

Both of them passing on never really sink into me until I went into a very & extremely bad depression dry spell in Feb/March . It didn't help matters that I was so stressed out with schoolwork & unwanted pressure that I gave myself . Combined all 3 with strained relationships with my schoolmates almost gave me a mental breakdown that nearly sent me off the edge .

This went on for almost close to 2 months before I eventually managed to recover from 'the dark age' & picked myself up in early April .

You might be wondering , 'oh you're so capable to be able to pick youself up ? ' . Nope , not at all . Honestly that wouldn't have happened without the tremendous big support that I got from people that have been following my blog since I started it in Feb 05 , especially to a few people in my life who I have bonded closer than ever (yes you're included Jen ) & also befriending Daniel , whom has changed my life for the better ever since I got to know him by chance last Nov.

If there's 1 thing in life that he taught me which stuck a chord in me , it's to never wallow yourself in self pity & that if the environment can't be changed overnight , I can change myself slowly & that I can change the environment for the better .

So after the rocky start to the beginning of the year , I started to pick the pieces up & built towards a harder tougher image both emotionally & physically . After taking a whole month break off in June meditating & whatever donkey crap , I took the plunge in July to 'dedicate' myself to shed the layers of the old me to the current existing stronger person I'm right now .

I 1st changed the way that I looked & eat . I was so sick of struggling with my weight for the longest time & I certainly don't wanna spend the 2nd decade of my life being fat like a pig . I researched numerous ways before putting myself in boot camp to eat the low carb way & have never look back since then . I realise that I been slipping slowly again but I'm going to buckle up as I don't wanna slide back & work so hard for nothing .

I broke off contacts with my old classmates & got together with another group of girls in my class & I have been happier ever since . I admit , it was a bit hard for me to interact with them as they have been in a group for the 1st 2 semesters but I managed fine eventually so yay me haha

& also in the last week of August , exactly 1 day before Electrico's gig at Sound Therapy in The Esplanade , went to see Dan for the 1st time in person at his workplace after communicating with him via email for the past few months . Was a bit scared meeting him & what was the 1st thing I said to him ? 'You looked different from pics , especially your hair ! ' Ya I know what a lame thing to say when you meet someone from the 1st time eh ? So not the drama ! Jen can vouch for that , it's so not me to say something like that !

I was like a mousy girl when I met him face 2 face & the experience was so surreal , it felt like I have known him for so long & my friendship with him's like the fact that he's like an older brother to me , not uncle unfortunately but since then there's no turning back . I had met him a few more times after that & he's a lovely person & has a good heart .

& obviously the next day was the day I finally got to see the band rock out at their Sound Therapy gig at The Esplanade . They put up a great show there which was a sell out house , the whole place was packed like sardines & after which I went up to him giving a high 5 & telling him that I enjoyed the whole gig very much . I still can remembered that time him being excited after I told him that I will be seeing him & his bandmates kicking some serious ASS with a capital A finally 2 weeks beforehand hee hee

As Jen know , he has been dragged down with so much work lately like 1 kind & as a result , the last time I saw him was in Nov so maybe it's about time another teh session will take place soon I say !

Oh I so can't forget this experience : The double bill concert with Electrico & Rivermaya on 25th Oct , Tue ! It was 1 hella experience which was held at Bar None . The place was packed to the brim , was the 1st time of everything for me .

1st time I officially & legally went inside a bar ( 2004's meet & greet with Gareth Gates's at Rouge's not counted ) , 1st time seeing the biggest & hottest rock band from The Philippines bringing the whole house down with their music & 1st time seeing the frontman Rico in person . He was so cute & had that charming aura around him . Even Dan also said the same thing ha

Also the discovery & re-return of great new artistes in the music industry . Say welcome back Mariah Carey who had a great comeback & hello to these a few fine new acts : Low Millions , The Veronicas , Ryan Cabrera , Gavin DeGraw & so much more .

Yes I cannot escape this important issue : my results . I have been consistently getting good grades since the start of my 2 year course which it's gonna commerce in Feb/March . By then , I will already have in mind what I would like to take in the poly so that I can continue to futher my studies . Now it's still a tad early but if I have any doubts , no big , can always ask my friend for his 2 cents's worth of advice .

You must be pondering , no love related issues ? Hell yes ! I think I'm 1 of the very few lucky ones who don't have any relationship problems to speak about . I'm more of a loner even though I must admit , sometimes it's hard when you see couples on the streets doing mushy things etc but I learnt to live with that . Besides , this's not on top of my priority list . I wouldn't waste my tears & energy on some guy who will make me lose sleep for nothing!

Overall , 2005 has changed & shaped my life for the better both physically & emotionally. It sounds cliche but the most important thing's never give up on what you try to accomplish or want to do .

With this new mindset & change in my attitude towards life , I'm ready for a double dip & take on the brand new year with zest & gusto !

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