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As I looked back 2005 , it was 1 hell of you can say joyride in some ways or another . Let's walk though the timeline with yours truly in here , using my own words ::

Relatively speaking , I didn't had a good start to the year at any bit . I lost my family doctor a few days before my 18th birthday & as a result , I had the lousiest time ever . So much for a happy occasion , that really & seriously dampen everyone's mood , I was not spared either unfortunately . Not to mention , I was dealt with another of my dad's 2nd older sis's sudden death that happened a few months . Talk about hitting a flat note & I hit that , twice in a row !

Both of them passing on never really sink into me until I went into a very & extremely bad depression dry spell in Feb/March . It didn't help matters that I was so stressed out with schoolwork & unwanted pressure that I gave myself . Combined all 3 with strained relationships with my schoolmates almost gave me a mental breakdown that nearly sent me off the edge .

This went on for almost close to 2 months before I eventually managed to recover from 'the dark age' & picked myself up in early April .

You might be wondering , 'oh you're so capable to be able to pick youself up ? ' . Nope , not at all . Honestly that wouldn't have happened without the tremendous big support that I got from people that have been following my blog since I started it in Feb 05 , especially to a few people in my life who I have bonded closer than ever (yes you're included Jen ) & also befriending Daniel , whom has changed my life for the better ever since I got to know him by chance last Nov.

If there's 1 thing in life that he taught me which stuck a chord in me , it's to never wallow yourself in self pity & that if the environment can't be changed overnight , I can change myself slowly & that I can change the environment for the better .

So after the rocky start to the beginning of the year , I started to pick the pieces up & built towards a harder tougher image both emotionally & physically . After taking a whole month break off in June meditating & whatever donkey crap , I took the plunge in July to 'dedicate' myself to shed the layers of the old me to the current existing stronger person I'm right now .

I 1st changed the way that I looked & eat . I was so sick of struggling with my weight for the longest time & I certainly don't wanna spend the 2nd decade of my life being fat like a pig . I researched numerous ways before putting myself in boot camp to eat the low carb way & have never look back since then . I realise that I been slipping slowly again but I'm going to buckle up as I don't wanna slide back & work so hard for nothing .

I broke off contacts with my old classmates & got together with another group of girls in my class & I have been happier ever since . I admit , it was a bit hard for me to interact with them as they have been in a group for the 1st 2 semesters but I managed fine eventually so yay me haha

& also in the last week of August , exactly 1 day before Electrico's gig at Sound Therapy in The Esplanade , went to see Dan for the 1st time in person at his workplace after communicating with him via email for the past few months . Was a bit scared meeting him & what was the 1st thing I said to him ? 'You looked different from pics , especially your hair ! ' Ya I know what a lame thing to say when you meet someone from the 1st time eh ? So not the drama ! Jen can vouch for that , it's so not me to say something like that !

I was like a mousy girl when I met him face 2 face & the experience was so surreal , it felt like I have known him for so long & my friendship with him's like the fact that he's like an older brother to me , not uncle unfortunately but since then there's no turning back . I had met him a few more times after that & he's a lovely person & has a good heart .

& obviously the next day was the day I finally got to see the band rock out at their Sound Therapy gig at The Esplanade . They put up a great show there which was a sell out house , the whole place was packed like sardines & after which I went up to him giving a high 5 & telling him that I enjoyed the whole gig very much . I still can remembered that time him being excited after I told him that I will be seeing him & his bandmates kicking some serious ASS with a capital A finally 2 weeks beforehand hee hee

As Jen know , he has been dragged down with so much work lately like 1 kind & as a result , the last time I saw him was in Nov so maybe it's about time another teh session will take place soon I say !

Oh I so can't forget this experience : The double bill concert with Electrico & Rivermaya on 25th Oct , Tue ! It was 1 hella experience which was held at Bar None . The place was packed to the brim , was the 1st time of everything for me .

1st time I officially & legally went inside a bar ( 2004's meet & greet with Gareth Gates's at Rouge's not counted ) , 1st time seeing the biggest & hottest rock band from The Philippines bringing the whole house down with their music & 1st time seeing the frontman Rico in person . He was so cute & had that charming aura around him . Even Dan also said the same thing ha

Also the discovery & re-return of great new artistes in the music industry . Say welcome back Mariah Carey who had a great comeback & hello to these a few fine new acts : Low Millions , The Veronicas , Ryan Cabrera , Gavin DeGraw & so much more .

Yes I cannot escape this important issue : my results . I have been consistently getting good grades since the start of my 2 year course which it's gonna commerce in Feb/March . By then , I will already have in mind what I would like to take in the poly so that I can continue to futher my studies . Now it's still a tad early but if I have any doubts , no big , can always ask my friend for his 2 cents's worth of advice .

You must be pondering , no love related issues ? Hell yes ! I think I'm 1 of the very few lucky ones who don't have any relationship problems to speak about . I'm more of a loner even though I must admit , sometimes it's hard when you see couples on the streets doing mushy things etc but I learnt to live with that . Besides , this's not on top of my priority list . I wouldn't waste my tears & energy on some guy who will make me lose sleep for nothing!

Overall , 2005 has changed & shaped my life for the better both physically & emotionally. It sounds cliche but the most important thing's never give up on what you try to accomplish or want to do .

With this new mindset & change in my attitude towards life , I'm ready for a double dip & take on the brand new year with zest & gusto !

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